nepetas last goodbye

still waiting

Karkat's POv

Its been a while since I have seen Nepeta . I don't think i will ever get to see her again. She's gone she's never coming back. And its all my fault. Although she's gone I want to be with her I want to see her. I want to finally be with her again. But its never going to happen. She's gone and its my fault. Ive tried for suicide beyond many times. No of them work. Kanaya is always there to stop me. She's been living with me since what happened to Nepeta. She promised she will never leave. That she's always by my side. I get that but nothings working because nepetas been gone for so long. I don't know how km still alive. I've been in the er more than I can count. All for the same reason also. Suicide. Suicide is always an option. But a selfish one for that matter. But it seems like my only way out. The only way to see Nepeta again. Im painfully waiting for my own death. For my own life to be done with. i only think about you how happy you were when i was with you. how much you loved to be around me. how much you thought i didnt care. i only think about you now you and only you. is it wrong that all i ever do is think about you? im toren because i thought i did the best for you when i realized i did the worst for you.

(sooo time skip to *drum roll* equius's part be prepared to be forced on a feels train *woot woot*)

equius's p.o.v

its been a while since ive have seen my dear morail nepeta. its turly sad that she is not here. ive tried to stay strong for her and only her. but yet again i have no one left. although the others are there for me i dont feel as complete with out her. i have heard that karkat has been in and out of the er because *cough cough* suicidal attempts and actions. i think karkat is taking this alot harder than me. although i blame no one i presume karkat blames him self for this.i feel actually bad for the low blood. i would actually like to tell him that he didnt but i dont think it will work, karkat can be stubborn at times. but dammit it wasnt his fault. i blame myself i promised nepeta i would always be there for her but i failed. everyones been a wreak since that day. i dont know how i could live on any longer. i failed her once but it feels like i have done everything i wasent supposet to do. and did them. i hurt the one person i care deeply about.. im sorry nepeta

(((HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIRK STRIDER ITS YOUR 16TH BITHDAY AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ALSO!!!))