The Beautiful Disease

Chapter 3: Breaking Away

Fia POV

The feeling inside of me that wanted me to be his mate flooded my body and through out any sense I had. I approached Theo, and put my hand on his, seeing how he would react. He then leaned in, testing the waters. Without thinking, I met him halfway and our lips touched. A small part of me was dying inside by the rest of my body felt amazing. Not getting enough, I kissed him again lightly, and proceed to kiss his neck and feel his strong, sculpted arms. He closed his eyes in pleasure, and I saw him having a hard time containing his wings. Lustfully, he took my hand and quickly took me up the stairs and towards the bedroom.

                   

Suddenly, my old self came back in, and the feeling went back to being hidden. This is just like my dream, that I never imagined could happen, and it can't. If it was another Angel it would be ok, but he's a Demon, and no matter how strongly I felt about him at times I had conceal it. I abruptly stopped on the stairs and pulled my hand away. He looked at me, confused, and his mate feelings for me obviously took over his body.

"I can't do this. It's not right," I decided to say confidently.

"Why not? I thought you wanted to explore your feelings?" He asked, perplexed.

"I did, but a voice inside my head is screaming no, I feel that I should listen to it. I can't be part of the rebellion. Goodbye, Theo. " I finished talking, and started walking towards the door. I could tell he was trying to get me to stay, but in response I shot out my wings, making a barrier between me and him. Once he saw me basically saying "Get the hell away from me," he walked away from the door with a sad look in his eyes. I did the right thing, and no more questioning it. I then took off, trying to make sure no one saw me in the Demon sector. What was I thinking, leaving my sector, talking to him, kissing him? I must've hit my head earlier, but I'm better now. I just hope no one knows what happened between us, and I tried to forget it as soon as possible.

I landed at my house, but stood on the porch and looked at my small but elegant garden. It contained

common white flowers, and I looked curiously at the centerpiece, which was a StarGazer Lily. I did live in an old house, nearly 30 years old. It was a hybrid flower, so it had to represent the mixing of mates between sectors. I went inside my house and grabbed my new history book. I flipped through the book, and stopped at rulers of the Supernaturals. Each one had a flower symbol, representing what they did, and whatever reign the house was built in had that pattern of flowers. The newest leader, without much known about him, had a pattern of flowers that were all the same color and same type. This obviously represented the ideal were being taught currently in school. When I flipped back to before him, I saw something very interesting.

The symbol was what I just saw outside, and represented just what I thought it did. There were pictures of the sectors without walls or boundaries and every sector being integrated. There were Supernaturals I had never seen before. The place looked like a fairy tale, and I had a hard time believing it happened just 25 years ago, before the new strict dictator we have now came to power.

I was never taught about the other rulers in school, and was surprised that the textbook referenced it. Maybe Theo was right, and life was supposed to be different. I just wished I knew why the new leader was enforcing restraining laws...

I closed my book and headed upstairs, worn out from today's events. I still had to go to school tomorrow, as much as I hated it.

I slowly fell asleep, and dreamed of the old world. Beautiful hybrid flowers bloomed everywhere. There weren't walls, any everyone intermingled. The schools looked the same, and you could sit anywhere wherever. Full history was taught in schools, and Alchemy taught about all kinds of Supernaturals, and I realized I was surrounded by unique creatures.

I awoke smiling, turned off my alarm, and looked outside. To my dismay, I saw plain flowers and large walls, obscuring my view of everything but the schools. I landed on my bed with a thud. Just 2 days ago, I never thought like this. What did Theo do to me?

As I got ready as usual, I thought about how awkward it would be seeing each other again. I now understood his point, and believed in it, but I wasn't ready to start a rebellion or explore whatever weird thing we had. I'll have to contain my feelings so I don't rush into things like last time. I've only known him 2 days, and not in the best way.

I stretched my wings in the morning sun and flew to the school. Luckily I didn't see anyone else and rushed into school before I did. I got to my locker, grabbed my stuff. Before turning around and shutting my locker, I made sure my hair was out of the way. That was not happening again. I carefully made my way to Alchemy, making sure no one saw me. I entered the class and sat down next to Lucas, an angel to my left.

"Why do you look so stressed?" He asked, putting his hand on mine.

I forcefully grabbed his hand and bent down his first finger. "Don't ever do that again."

"Ok, ok stop please. I'll leave you alone then. Don't forget I'm going to your house today. Your parents are coming back from their business trip, aren't they? Too bad for you." I almost slapped him right there, but the teacher turned around and faced the class. The rest of the day, I barely saw Theo. The feeling inside me missed him, but I had to stifle it. I can't listen to it, I need to follow the rules. I haven't been thinking about the consequences of us if we are found out or go any farther.

At the end of the day, I saw Theo, and decided to tell him what we are doing isn't right, and we need to stop now, especially since my strict parents were going to be home later today and I had to go with Lucas, who they set up for me to be my mate, as much as I disagreed with it. As I realized so much is in danger with me even talking to Theo, I stuck to my original speech.

"Yes?" Theo asked expectantly.

"I can't be apart of anything with you, and I should probably stop talking to you before we get in trouble." A tear fell down his cheek and dripped onto his shirt.

"Why? I know you felt something the other day. Do I mean anything to you?"

"We've had our fun, but I didn't feel anything. It was all imagined."

"By the way you acted yesterday, I can tell you're lying." He responded confidently.

"It's just not going to work. What if your parents find out? Don't you have a mate picked out for you?"

"I do, but is that who you want to be with?" I shaked my head no clearly. Lucas was the last Supernatural I'd want to be with.

"There's still a part of me that won't allow it, and I feel that it is right."

He took my hands in his. "We can conquer it together."

I grabbed my hands out of his, crying. "I just can't! My dad is the ruler of the Supernaturals!"