For You who...

First

Things shall not be misinterpreted I guess. Lalong-lalo na yung treatment mo. You're naturally sweet and clingy. You're naturally sweet and clingy to everyone. Is it my fault? Kasalanan ko ba na sweet ka kaya kung anu-ano ang naiisip ko? That maybe, maybe you like me, like maybe, just maybe. It's funny. Quite ridiculous kasi umasa ako. Pa-fall? Paasa? Should I call you like that? You just chatted me right? You just seemed to show like you cared. You never told me you like me right? You just told me I'm pretty. I fell for those traps. I fell for those sweet gestures. But then when I admitted to myself that I like you, it felt like you're playing with me. Your friend told me you've got a gf. Woah. I'm crazy. Who am I to think you'll like me? I am not beautiful unlike her. She can cook, I got a hard time doing so. She's kind, palagi kitang tinatarayan. She got a long hair then I cutted mine. I think it's impossible for you to like me ,no, it's impossible for me to be liked by someone. You don't have to do this to me. It sucks! Really. I don't really hate you don't ya worry. Naiinis lang ako sa sarili ko. I should've stopped myself. Well, I'm thankful to your friend. Salamat dahil sinabi niya. I'm sorry kung medyo iiwas muna ako. There's a golden rule that I don't wanna disobey. "I shall not cling unto anyone who's already taken." I don't want to ruin your relationship. You two were just starting.Don't worry, it's just temporary, I'll just wait hanggang friendship na lang ulit yung gustuhin ko. I'll just wait na humupa itong nararamdaman ko. Hindi pa naman ito ganun katindi. It's just almost starting. Still, I'm in control of it pa naman. Hindi mo naman kailangang malaman na apektado ako. Well, I'm not that much affected naman. Crush lang naman kita, Nothing more, nothing less. Ngayon, I know I have to divert my attention to anything. Distraction, yun yung kailangan ko and school loads we're more than too much for a distraction. In the right time, I'll be that friend again. That friend na madaling kausap, that friend na magbibigay, that friend na iintindi. I remember when you told me I shall understand. Ah yeah. I shall understand you, kahit hindi na ako. Ikaw na lang. Ikaw na lang yung iintindihin ko. Ayos lang sakin na hindi mo malaman yung nararamdaman ko. I'll understand na hindi naman ako yung gusto mo. I'll understand na siya naman yung kailangan mo at alam kong dadating yung oras na hindi na kita maiisip. Pausap lang ha, 'wag ka namang magpakilig kung hanggang dun ka lang pala. Teka, nagpakilig ka ba o natural na yun sa'yo?

I should always remember this, "never expect, never assume. Ask first before jumping into conclusion para hindi ka nasasaktan."

Hindi ka man niya magustuhan, always think na He's always there for us. You are God's Beloved.