Positive Charge

Chapter 3

nicole sat down beside purdy and put his arm around her.
he looks at her eyes with deep concern,feeling anxious and guilt.
his heart was feeling heavy on his chest.
silence soon filled them as they blanked at each other.
they feel anxious,nervous all at once.
nicole began to caress purdy's cheek gently with his tender soft touch on her face as he raised his hand to cup her cheek,
nicole noticed the dark morning sky with yellow and orange lightning,softing purdy's facial features.
the yellow and orange lighting shining on her face giving her facial features a warm calming glow around her,
nicole was noticing how purdy looked when the warm glow lighting was shining on her.
purdy looks at nicole with a dramatic calming pose.
the dramatic yellow and orange lights surrounded,giving her a glowing look.
nicole says,i am here for you.
i love you purdy because you are brilliant, smart, and i do not want to imagine my life without you.
i want to have you in my life forever.
i feel like we relate to each other
because we both...uh...have so much in common.
purdy says,i know it.
i love you nicole because i was amazed anyone would stand up for me.
you did good to me like no other.
nicole says, wow, my pleasure, no problem!
we are boyfriend and girlfriend.
right?
purdy says,why, yes!
how do you deal with your charge?
if you don't mind telling me, of course.
nicole explained,oh, i would like to tell, no one ever bothered to ask me!
purdy says,okay, so what is it?
nicole says,i really try to be positive as much as i could. sometimes it's too hard.
i like being alone.
it is really helps not to be involved in other people's drama.
i like to read a lot or listen to music just to keep my mind off of things for a while.
purdy says,oh, i understand.
how i deal with my austism is i really avoid crowds as much as possible.
when i am in a crowd, i wear noise canceling headphones.
i sit down all by myself where there is no one or noise.
i study and do homework for math, science, and practice typing on my ipad keyboard.
it is boring for some, but it is really fun for me.
i have a wide interest base that has nothing or little to do involving other people.
nicole says,very interesting.
purdy says something that made nicole stop talking,being quiet as he heard her,
can i ask you something?
did you ever want kids when we get married?
i was just wondering.
a small sigh escaped his lips.
he pulled back from her slightly and looked away.
nicole says with fear and calm, that is a hard question for me.
i didn't want to tell you...
it might be too soon, but then again it may never feel right to talk about it.
purdy says, huh?
what?
what are you talking about?
nicole started to cry and reveals his infertility and expressing how he feels about it with a sad sorrowful voice,i can never have kids no matter how much i want to.
not wanting them would not make me any less infertile if i wished to say i didn't want them, but it's easier to say i don't want kids than to say i'm infertile.
my charge made me infertile because i have underdeveloped organs due to premature birth.
i had surgery for undescended testes.
my birth hernia surgery was used to make the testes look more normal but not restore functioning.
if i had functioning in the first place, maybe i wouldn't be infertile.
my undescended  testes are retrieved intradominately the primary functioning cannot be restored.
so i'm infertile for life.
having 23 weeks underdeveloped organs makes them non functional or very little functioning.
it is hard for me.
i wasn't going to have kids or even make one because well...you know.
i'm sure you are perfectly fertile but i'm not.
so, what do you think?
he looked purdy hard in the eyes, but there was softness there, too. and maybe even a little desperation.
purdy knew he looked hurt and says about his infertility,it must be really hard to hear people brag about their kids and post pictures on facebook.
nicole says,yeah, that was one of the reasons i quit facebook.
purdy was shocked and surprised,deeply feeling sad for him in a sad calming voice,you never told me?
nicole says,i know.
i'm sorry i didn't tell you soon.
i was very ashamed.
i didn't want you to be mad, or...or...
gah! you might leave me.
purdy says,what was that?
or what?
what?
leave you? i love you, nicole.
i really do.
nothing will ever change that.
you are the most genuine person i met, and i wouldn't stand to leave you for any reason.
purdy wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him lightly and says,i love you more than anything.
it doesn't matter how many versions of us we could have hypothetically, i would always put you first.
nicole hugged her tightly, and water began to trickle down her back.
except she knew it wasn't water,but nicole's tears.
purdy asked about nicole's wardrobe,you have very feminine clothes.
how do you select your wardrobe?
nicole explained,i'm glad you asked.
i wear shades of the same color to represent how i feel because i really do not like dull men clothes, implying men are emotionless.
i am neither dull nor emotionless.
i mean is monochromatic = one color throughout entire outfit in different shades.
it's really fashionable. i'm really into fashion.
my clothing styles and colors represents the mood and tone of our situations because it really sets the mood.
purdy says,i like that.
what are you going to wear tomorrow?
i really like your style.
nicole says,thanks.
purple because it symbolizes loyalty.
i would wear purple for the rest of my life because i'm always loyal to you.
purdy smiled at him and says,thank you, you're so sweet. come on, let's go.
they stand up together, hand in hand, and walked to the principal's office to report the bullies, and that's why they were late to class.
upon entering the principal's office, the principal looked up and asked, may i help you?
nicole explained, yes, um, actually, purdy and i were being bullied by a group of bullies, and
principal nodded and he asked, can you describe what happened? who are they? 
nicole explained, billy, sally, michael, and kirk. they surrounded us outside the cafeteria and threw insults. purdy had an emotional meltdown and, i threw my purse at them in self defense.
the principal nodded.
"i see," he said.
he called all the bullies to the office, and they came stumbling in looking shocked.
the principal asked the bullies one by one to apologize to nicole and purdy, and they begrudgingly did. purdy and nicole were excused and went to class.