The Hard Doubled Life

Happy Downer.

Back To Amanda's POV.

I woke up to the sound of quacking... 

wait quacking? I looked around for my phone feeling stupid. 

How the hell did I forget to turn off my alarm!??!?!? 

I found it in my jeans from yesterday that was in my suitcase.  

How did I forget my phone in my pocket??? 

I turned off my alarm and noticed Dylan was still sleeping. 

Hmmmm I have my pocket knife with me in my suitcase.... Should I cut him? Kill him?? I only got to slash his arm twice 3 years ago. It made and an X on his left arm.

What the fuck? Are you crazy?! 

Conscience? 

Yes It's me, stupid! 

Ooh.... Hello. I'm busy right now so please leave a message after the beep.... BEEEEEEEEP 

For god's sake! Stop messin' around! 

You suck. 

What are you thinking?! You can not do that to Dylan! 

Yes I can. He killed Lillian. Remember that. 

It was and accident for christ sakes! Get over it! 

No! Leave me alone before I cut myself. 

Don't go Emo on me! 

I'm not I just want you to leave. 

I will if you don't kill him. 

I'll think about it. 

.............

I walked back to the bed and put my pocket knife on the bedside table. I laid next to him looking at him.... 

It's been three years. And I still haven't been able to let it go... If I killed him right now what would happen??? Would Lillian be mad at me? Will I get suspended? Or kicked out? Would I be able to just leave his body there? Would Kristopher be mad? What would they do with his stuff? Would they give away that locket that's on his neck???? WAIT locket? What locket? 

I looked at the silver locket. There was and A engraved on it with an engraved leaf on the side. Wait. I know that locket. It's the one I gave to him for his 10th birthday. I was only 9 at the time. I grabbed the locket and swiped my thumb over the top. I opened it and saw the picture of me. I looked so small and retarded when I was 9. My hair was always in a bun but I put it down whenever Dylan told me to. He said it made me look prettier. My hair dark brown hair went to shoulders and my fringe was the to side. My fringe was the length of my hair, It went to my shoulders. I never had to worry about it if I put it in a ponytail. I smiled back at the memories. Now my fringe is still long but not that long. I studied the picture of me when I was so little. I looked up to Dylan's face. He looked so peaceful and happy, and he look like a sex god!  

Hahahah Just Kidding! I don't look at guys that way. Yea Dylan was really good looking but I'm not going that far.  

I can't believe he kept this. After all those years.... 

See! You need to forgive him and let go. 

Conscience! I thought I told you to go away! 

I did but now I'm back. You didn't say how long I need to be gone. 

Ugh. 

But really you need to let go. 

I can't. She was like my little sister!