girl unraveled

loose ends

i have all these loose
ends
everywhere i look,
someone has a jagged end where i sawed
off the rope that bound them to me

i hope all these loose ends
have found happiness
tied up somewhere else
or simply dangling freely
wherever the wind takes them

i'm sorry to all the loose ends
who never got a proper
reason why

here is your reason;
i did it because i couldn't breathe,
with all those ropes tied so tight around
my throat
with so many people tugging
and pulling and trying so
hard to use me to pull themselves
out of the darkness
trying so hard to use me
as somewhere secure
to attach themselves to so
they weren't falling anymore

i may look like a steady post to
attach yourself to but you see,
my foundation was cracking and
with all those ropes
i was almost torn out of the ground

i hope my loose ends understand that
i did it because i couldn't breathe

i couldn't breathe