I don't want to live forever! A Ticci Toby Fanfiction

Secret's Out...

Waking up once again in the infirmary i see EJ once again looking at me saying: Toby, don't take the pills. They are dangerous! NO THEY'RE NOT EJ YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND I NEED THEM! No you don't Toby if you did they wouldn't cause you to come here, will they? So what if they bring me here?! It stops them from talking to me! I don't understand Toby, who's talking to you? 

I then hear the door slam open to see Slenderman standing in the doorway looking mad (somehow) as he spoke: EJ leave me and Toby alone for a second, i need to talk to him. Yes sir. he said as he walked out leaving me and slenderman alone.

What is it Slender? Toby, i need to know whats wrong with you, you can't just keep ending up here. Yes i can Slender, got a problem with it? If so leave me I've got myself under control. No you don't child, you keep ending up here coughing up blood and consuming pills. I know slender, i know what i'm doing. Do you now child? Then what do the pills do? They stop them from talking to me. Now can you leave me alone? No, i can't child. I have to take care of you and who? I can take care of myself slender! No you can't Toby! You need to tell me who. Them, slender. Who is them? The voices in my head. I see, you may go now Toby.

Once he said that i took no chances for him to change his mind, i grabbed my pills and ran into my room once again jumped out of the window and climbed up to the roof. Hearing masky's calls i didn't listen i had to be alone! 

I jumped up to the roof and sat there as i swallowed some more pills as i watched the sunset disappear into the Earth. I kept hearing the voices now and again telling me to give up already! After a few minutes, hours? I saw masky start to climb up to the roof where i was and he gave me a hug.

What is it masky? Whats wrong Toby? Nothing Masky... There is obviously something wrong you sat up here all by yourself! That's normal for me Masky. No it isn't! Anyway i heard about your Pills. he looks at the pill bottle half hanging out of my pocket as i shove it in more. What about it? That i'm a twitchy freak who needs mental pills to keep himself sane? No... i heard that you had them for a medical reason but Slenderman didn't say what type of medical reason. Hm... good because i don't want anyone to know about the real reason, after all i'm only a twitchy freak! No your not Toby, Your just special! Special huh? Something I've never heard someone say about someone who witnessed their sister die and killed his father and burning his mother alive!

I'm just a freak that no one likes Masky... How can someone like you like me? Don't say that Toby! Your amazing, in your own way! I take out a cigarette and start to light it while smoking it as masky started to tell me how "special" i was! Who could believe it?  A Stupid twitchy freak like you can be loved! I know, at least someone in this stupid world appreciates me! I know right?! This is just stupid you should just kill yourself already Toby! No! Masky cares about me! if it wasn't for him i would've already!

Hey Toby you okay? I nod while finishing off the cigarette i had and taking out my pill bottle and swallowing two of them. Toby? Yes Masky? What is it? Oh, i just wanted to know if you were okay. i saw you zone out for a but then. What were you thinking about? I sigh while saying: Look, i don't know what you expect of me but. I know no one cares about me, like who would? I'm just a useless soul who has no purpose to even be here! Don't say that Toby!  I care about you! I love you!