I don't want to live forever! A Ticci Toby Fanfiction

I want to give up...

Once i put on my goggles and mouth guard i grabbed my crutches and walked downstairs to get a snack. (BTW in the story it is supposed to be 2am and hes alone without anyone else because everyone is asleep apart from him)

I made my way downstairs and once i got to the kitchen for once i didn't feel like eating waffles so instead of eating something i opened the fridge with struggles and poured myself a glass of orange juice and drank it. Then that's when it hit me i forgot to take my pills but before i could grab the bottle the voices came back. But instead of taking the pills i decided to talk to them fora bit. After all no one really cares about me, if they did they would be with em right now right?

Long time no talk, Hey what's up? You seem more depressed then normal. Its just, i miss Lyra that's all. You sure about that? Fine, i admit it i feel like no one cares and if they do they aren't showing it that's all. Why don't you do something fun?! Like what? I don't know, something that you used to like doing when Lyra was with you. Waffle fights? Sure, but your the only one downstairs remember. True, How about i just talk to you?  Okay! But what about? Anything, How about why you think no one cares about you? 

First of all because when i feel like giving up on the world no one's there to help me. Well, isn't that because you never go near anyone else when you feel like giving up? true, but why would i be? I don't know? because you want help? I guess so, uh i just feel like dying no one would care anyway!

Back to normal.

I walk back up to the proxy room with my crutches and close the door behind me as i make my way over to the bathroom. Trying not to wake anyone up i walk in and close the door behind me. I then take out a razor blade and look at my reflection in the mirror.

I whisper: I'm sorry masky. As i start to slice my wrists making sure i don't lose that much blood so i don't faint and then put the razor back and then add a new bandage on my arms and then start to make my way over to my bed and lay there until the next morning.