I don't want to live forever! A Ticci Toby Fanfiction

Major Depression

Once slenderman left the room Ben sat next to me on my bed and started asking questions. I didn't want to answer but If I didn't I didn't want to know what others thought of me.

"Hey Toby, Stop crying." I shook my head as tears streamed down my face as I hugged my knees. "What's wrong? Why did you try and kill yourself?"

"Y-you wouldn't u-understand." I say between tears. "If you want I can get masky. I nodded my head still crying as he left the room.

When he left the room I kept hearing the voices. I wanted it to stop I wanted to DIE.

Your just a useless  that has no purpose to live. Just DIE already no one cares. I know. Then kill yourself DIE! I c-can't I d-don't know how.
Worthless
Useless
Little FBoy
DIE
No one cares
Kill
Kill
Kill

Just as I was about to reach for the razor blades I heard Masky's voice. "T-Toby don't do it." "Why N-not no o-one cares." "Toby I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS I CARE ABOUT YOU EVERYONE CARES ABOUT YOU! IF YOU THINK THINK I DON'T THEN IT'S OVER!!"

He walked out of the room leaving me to cry even more then I was and cuddle up to my knees not caring about who hears me.

I run to the bathroom and take out the razor blades and start slicing my arms to see the blood running down my skin onto the floor. I giggle at the feeling as I start to grab some bandages and cover up the cuts.

Once I covered my arms up slenderman teleported behind me. "It's dinner Toby, you coming?" "Not If I have to see other people no."

"What's wrong child? You haven't been eating for days and what happened with masky?" "I don't want to talk about it."

"Okay child if your not coming for dinner call me if you need anything." I nod my head and he teleports away.

Once masky shouted at me it reminded me of my dad shouting, raping and abusing me. I just want to DIE

I walked back to my bed and grabbed the cover and brought it over to a corner and covered myself with the cover and sat and cried in the corner for the rest of the day.

After a few hours of crying I hear a knock at my door but I was too weak to stand or talk so they eventually just walked in.

"What's wrong Twitch? Why didn't you come to dinner?" "L-leave me alone J-jeff."

"No you stupid Twitch why don't you just go die!?" He then left the room and closed the door behind him. I hated the nickname Twitch it reminded me of the time when when I used to go to school and get bullied.

The next morning

Still sat in the same corner I try and stand up but my legs were wobbly because of the lack of food I've been eating. When i stood up slenderman teleported in front of me.

"You okay there Toby? You look skinnier then usual. Anyway today Lui with be moving into your room with you. "W-wait what!?"

"Didn't I already tell you? Lui is moving into your room with you because he's had enough of his brother and anyway you need company." I shake my head. "I d-don't I need t-to be alone."

"Child you need to be watched I don't trust you enough to be alone." "It's pretty obvious."

"Well Lui is nearly here so can I trust you to be alone for a few minutes?" I nod my head and he teleported away.

After a few minutes of waiting Lui came through the door and started talking to me while he was setting his stuff down.

"So how are you Toby? Apart from the disorders, depression and suicidalness." "H-hell."Whys that Toby?" "N-no one cares a-about me."

"What makes you say that?" "Why S-sorry many q-questions?" "Oh come on I'm curious and anyway I'm sure people care about you."

"That's w-what I thought." "What happened? And why did masky shouted at you yesterday?" "I d-don't want to t-talk about t-that."

"Okay, what would you do If I told you that I care about you?" "Be 1% happier why." "Because I care about you. I know Jeff will kill me if I say this but I care about you more then him. Your like a little brother."

"W-what's that supposed t-to mean?" "That your worth caring for and your loveable." He gave me a smile at the end and sat down on my bed next to me.

"T-thanks I guess." "No problem Toby, if anythings wrong you can talk to me." He gave me a hug and I was shocked but I eventually hugged back.

(Do you ship it or do you think they should just be best friends?
~Shadow)