The Boy From The North; a Phanfiction

I Fell In Love With That Stupid Face of Yours

Ali and I were planning how to get Phil back in school.

"Maybe we could just tell your dad it was a mistake?" I suggested.

"You think he'd really buy that? Because I don't."

"Well damn Alison, I don't know what to do."

"Maybe we just let it go..."

"NO! We won't do that! I fucked up so badly, it's my fault." I was tearing up.

"YOUR FAULT?! You really are a fucking idiot. He BEAT YOU UP! And you feel bad for him? You need to reevaluate your life." Allison stood up like she was going to leave.

I grabbed her arm, my eyes begging her to stay. She pulled away, "you know Dan, you're the sweetest guy, you see the best in the worst people, and that will be your downfall." She grabbed her purse and left.

Why do I always do that to her? She is trying to be there for me and I shove her away because I think having a boyfriend is more important! And she's right about Phil! Well, not completely, I think I'm the only one that knows his sweet side.  

I picked up my phone and texted Phil: Hey, meet me where we had our 2nd date?

For our second date, we did something very simple but cute and memorable. He took me to this little park, he said it was the first place he went to when he got here, because he "couldn't handle his parents and he needed to clear his head." When he took me to the park, we walked around until we stopped at a little fountain surrounded by trees. He started to climb one of the trees, then he told me to give him my hand and he helped pull me up. When we were finally high enough we sat on a branch and just talked and looked at the fountain. Finally, when it was sunset, he pulled a blanket out of the backpack he was carrying and we laid and watched it together. I knew this would be the best place to tell him anything I ever needed to tell him. 

I was sitting on the edge of the fountain when Phil walked up and kissed me on the cheek. "what's up?"

"We need to talk, Phil."

"Whoa, are you breaking up with me?" He laughed as he started to climb the tree.

"Seriously Phil, this isn't a joke."

"Damn, what's the matter?"

"WHAT'S THE MATTER? SERIOUSLY YOU'RE A CHILD SOMETIMES!" I composed myself, "Phil a lot has happened in the last few weeks, and everything is not fine between us."

Phil's face fell, "what- what do you mean? Is this about me hurting you? Dan, I'm so SORRY. I thought I made myself clear I didn't mean it, I love you Dan."

"Yes Phil, it's about that and about you getting expelled, and everything in between. You and I were something that, truthfully, should have never happened. I love you too, Phil, but do you honestly think that if we had met somewhere else we would have ever happened?"

"No, but-"

"Phil, let me finish this. The only other guy I have loved more than you is Gerard Way, obviously," I laughed, "you were the first boy to steal my heart, break it, and heal it. I fell in love with my bully, sounds like a stupid teen movie... But do you get what I am saying? No, I don't get what I'm saying... Phil you have a special place in my heart, always will. When I'm 90 and my husband is long dead and my kids have kids and I'm laying on my death bed thinking of everything that has happened in my life, I will think of you, that boy from the North, that boy with the silly fringe and amazing blue eyes, that boy that stole my heart with the first words he spoke even though he said "move out of my way loser," that boy who was my first." Phil was crying, I think I was too. "But I was talking to Alison today and she made some good points, you beat me up Phil, just because I forgave you doesn't mean I forget it, the pain I felt. The marks that you caused!"

"ALISON?!" Phil leapt from the tree in one swift movement, it looked like it came from an anime. "I will not let her break us up! You're the only good thing in my life Dan!"

"ONLY GOOD THING?! YOU'RE RICH!"

"Dan! Shut up, oh my god! I LOVE you, you stupid boy. I never knew what I was missing in my life until I had you and lost you. Everything that's happened to us is my fault, I don't even care if I never get back into thay stupid school, I just need you in my life. I was a bad person, I AM a bad person, but you make me better. Even before we dated, I could tell I was getting better. Yelling at you, the day of the concert, was one of the worst things I've ever done, I've done too many things too you that are awful and I can never take them back. When I am lying on my death bed, I'll see you too. I'll see the cute boy who ran into in the hall, the boy who became my lab partner, the boy who I told things no one else knew, the boy who I kissed on my bed, the boy who I pulled a cruel prank on, the boy who I beat to a pulp, the boy who forgave me, the boy who was my first... The boy who was my first everything. The boy who's stupid face I couldn't get out of my head, I fell in love with that stupid face. And maybe, just maybe if I'm lucky, when I'm on my deathbed I'll be ready because I'll see him again, because I was able to spend the rest of my life with him."

"Phil, really? You think we'd get married?"

He brushed his fringe out of his face and tucked what was long enough behind his ear, "what you don't? I mean of course it's a silly thought, we are just in high school. But you never know, we could be the 1% that make it. I mean it's not like I fantasize about it, but yes I could see myself spending the rest of my life with you, Dan."

I was looking at my feet, I couldn't bare to look him in the eyes. Do it now, Dan, you need to get this over with.

I took a deep breath and looked at Phil, his big blue eyes happy but also red from tears.

"Well, good luck with that Phil," I stood up, "because I don't see us together in the future. I don't even see us together tomorrow, or the next day, or the next. We're over. I can't be with someone who can be so hurtful and then just think apologizing is okay. Goodbye, Philip."

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HOLY SHIT! Can you believe it?! DAN stood up to PHIL?! 

I figured I should update bc its Dan's birthday... Well it still is where I live. I WILL finish this over the summer! but i do have shows im going to watch ( I started Black Butler yesterday OH MY GOD ITS AMAZING) and books to read. 

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