Unrequited

Lights Out

So here's what you missed on Unrequited...
After the shooting scare at McKinley, Marley's decided to share her songs with everybody. The New Directions are even gonna perform one of them at Regionals. Also because of the shooting scare, the reader realized that she loves Sebastian as much as she does Marley and Ryder. She just hasn't told him yet. Ryder declared his love for the reader by saying that they were gonna end up together. But...the reader told Marley in the choir room that even if they aren't dating that they're in love. It's a messy web of love and the reader is supposed to make a decision by Nationals. And that's what you missed on Unrequited!

A few weeks after the shooting scare at McKinley, I sit at my piano at home with my hands playing random melodies. I'm basically just stalling from what I'm really supposed to be doing.

"Y/n, you don't have to sing the song," Sebastian chuckles from the couch behind me.

I inhale deeply as I turn around on the bench to face him. "Yes. I do," I say determinedly. "I think you'll get it more if I sing it than if you listen to the original."

"I was joking when I said you had to sing me your last song yourself if you wanted me to hear it," he rolls his eyes and his lips are taken over by his bright and warm smile.

It eases my nerves a bit. My features soften and my lips pull upward into a cheeky smile. "Yes, I'm aware. But...I want to," I inform him as I turn back around and lay my fingers on the keys again.

Slowly, I begin to play the keys to my last song for Sebastian. It's about a half beat slower than the original and I felt like playing it that way would convey what I'm feeling better. Then, I begin singing softly.

I never thought that You would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around
And you knocked me off the ground from the start
You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

A smile forms on my lips, causing the tone to be happier and I wish I could see Sebastian's reaction. But, maybe I'd lose my nerve if I could. I continue on, raising the volume of my voice slightly with confidence.

How many times will let you me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

Suddenly, I feel Sebastian snake his arms around my waist as he sits on his knees behind me. He rests his chin on my shoulder as he listens intently. This next part is where I get slightly more nervous.

The world is coming down on me
And I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you
But I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

His arms reflexively hold me tighter in response to the sad tone in my voice. I turn my head slightly so that my cheek is right next to his lips. He gently leans forward and places a kiss on my cheek as I continue through the rest of the song. Finally, it ends and I turn around on the bench. Sebastian still sits in the floor with his arms around me and his hands clasped on the small of my back.

I look down at my own clasped hands in my lap as I wait for his reaction. "Hey," he says softly and when I look up he has a reassuring smile on his face. His eyes gaze into mine seriously. "Thank you," he tips his head to the side at my confused expression. "For sharing that with me."

"Oh," I clear my throat and shake my head dismissively. "Uh...you're welcome." My eyebrows furrow and a reluctant smile takes over. "I...um...I don't feel like that anymore, though," I inform him.

His smile dims slightly. "You...you don't?"

"Nope," I continue to look at him and I see the worried expression. Then I realize how that sounded. "Oh! No...I didn't mean-" I giggle nervously. "I meant I don't feel afraid anymore. Not the other part..." I raise one hand to caress the side of his head.

He breathes a sigh of relief and chuckles. "Oh, okay. Good. That's good to know..." When his eyes meet mine again they flick to my lips briefly and he stretches up towards my face. I lean back slightly.

"But," I whisper.

He whines playfully. "No. No 'buts', y/n."

"Bash," I giggle. "I have to be honest with you. My love life is pretty complicated right now, and I'm really confused about everything..."

His eyebrows furrow inquisitively. "Why? What's going on?"

I shrug and breathe deeply. "I just...I just need time. I've basically had my heart broken three times over this year and I'm not itching for a fourth," I admit.

He nods, waiting for me to continue.

"Besides, I'm a Sophomore and you're graduating in a couple of months..." I remind him. "Is this really the time to be starting anything when you're going to go back to Paris?"

He inhales deeply and releases it. "Maybe not, but don't you at least want to try?"

I smile ruefully at him. "I'll tell you what. I'll have an answer after Nationals about whether or not we can give this a go," I promise him.

"All I ask is that you think about it," he grins happily at me. "Until then..."

I scoff playfully as I see where his train of thought is going. "Until then," I pause dramatically. "We can still hang out...and I guess you can still kiss me if you want," I tease.

"Mhm," he nods his head playfully. "But only if you want me to kiss you," he promises.

I roll my eyes as I place a hand on the back of his neck and immediately pull him up to press my lips to his. His hands grips my waist slightly as we stay like that for a moment.

When we pull apart I kiss his nose. "I guess I want that too." I bite my lip to suppress my grin and he leans forward to kiss me again. We continued on like that for a few hours, just joking around and kissing each other. Then he had to go home to finish homework before school tomorrow. I did the same.

~DISCONTINUED~