Choice

Chapter 10

I thought about what Dr. Monroe said to me about changing myself before I could change others. I do admit that I can be really stuck up sometimes but I don't think I'm that bad. Am I?

I got worse the next few week mentally. I still had my real friend Monica and I now talk to Alex but besides them and my family, everyone else hates me.

I had killer written on my car, death notes in my locker and desk, and I was pushed "accidentally" down the stairs. The police won't help as a matter of fact, it seems like they are encouraging it. I swore one cop told his kid, "Make her pay son."

I have no energy left and it's only the beginning of November. Dr. Monroe helps but I can't do it anymore.

My brother Mikey and my parents went on a trip this weekend and I didn't want to go. I thought this was a good time to end it all.

I took three pain killers and then said bump it and took the whole jar.

I heard my phone ring and it was Alex. I didn't pick up. He called three more times and texted me fifteen times the last text I could see before I passed out was "I'm coming over now!"

After that it was just flashes. I heard a knock on the door. Alex went to my window and looked at me with shocked eyes. Another flash and he broke my window. He came in and wiped the hair out my face. He looked at the empty bottle of pain killers and mouthed "Oh my God."

He lifted me up and carried me to his car. He called 911. The last thing I knew before I passed out was him saying "Why are you so screwed up? I am always right here for you."

I swore my heart warmed when he said that but maybe that was the drugs.