Sentiments of Madness

My Lie since Day Zero

I’m living a lie.
Pretending to be nice. To be good. To be kind.
I want nothing more than to smash the faces of every annoying ones that comes in my way.
In this world where society lives with certain standards of morality and etiquette.
In this world filled with unwritten rules, unbending laws and ever changing norms.
False values. Fake standards. Weak morals. Hypocrisy.

I’m living a lie.
I’m nice. I smile nicely. I act nicely.
This life is so restricting I want to gag.
I don’t want to be a superhero saving lives.
Villains suit me best being selfish doing only what I want.
It’s innate.  The ‘me before you’ phrase.

I’m living a lie.
Acting good. Doing good. Following the good.
Gah! It’s tiring and it’s becoming more like a skill.
The patience. The discipline.  The control.
The patience not to bring out my wrath.
The discipline and control not to blow things right here and now.

I’m living a lie.
Acting like that when I’m like this.
Freaking shitheads getting in my way. Freaking shitheads. Getting in my way.
Almost everyone is my enemy but I’m friend to those who is nice to me.
One move, one mistake and you’re in my shit list.
My Death Note.

Piracy. One Piece! We are!
Arson. Set the world on fire...
Murder. I want to get away with it.
Treason. It’s just me against the world, baby.
Guns and firearms. Ratatatatatatat.
Yeah… my favourite crimes.

We are puppets of our society.
Being played by a marionette with invisible strings.
Afraid to be scorned.
Afraid to be rejected.
Afraid to object.
Afraid. Afraid. Always afraid.

Why not cause chaos and discord and remake the world.
I want to rule above all else. Not to set things right, just straight.
I’m not looking for a perfect world. Just a little twisted one.
Where survival of the fittest is at its finest.
Everyone is equal aside from me.
This is what I want.

I will make just five Golden rules.
One. You obey me.
Two. Don’t disobey me.
Three. Make me happy.
Four. Take it easy.
Five. Have fun.