Sentiments of Madness

Sorry, Not You

I don’t know where to start
I told myself to make this fast
Nothing will soften the blow
And you can hit me all you can…
There’s someone else I love,
Someone no longer you.

I’m sorry,
It seems that it is the only word that I can say to you,
It’s not enough, I know
But it is the only thing that I can give you.
I’m sorry.
You’re not the one at fault. I am.
I am the one with a change of heart
You’re not lacking anything so don’t go blame yourself for something you didn’t do,
I simply fell out of love,
Again I’m sorry.

I had fun.
My time with you is wonderful
It will be with me forever
Those memories…
The park, the icecream, the vending machine,
The yellow pillow, your horrible polkadots shirt …
I will miss you..
You smile, hugs and kisses.
Your coffees, muffins …
We can no longer sleep under the starry night…
We can no longer see the sunsets together
We can no longer see the birds fly
Or listen to the song of our hearts

I’m sorry I can’t stay when I promised you I will,
I made hundreds of promises to you
And the one that I can’t keep is the most important to you
I don’t want to say goodbye
I don’t want to leave you alone
But I can no longer stay
My heart found somewhere else
Somewhere far away from you.
I didn’t know that this time will come
That our moment will end…
That the beginning we always thought would last forever,
Will be crumbling in front of us…
And we stood there…
Watching…
When the world around us falls apart.

I always thought of us together.
Not Me. Not You. Always Us.
Not one without the other.
A pair.
A soulmate.
Together! Forever!
But no.
Fate destined otherwise.
My heart dictates otherwise.
I’m not for you.
We’re not for each other.
Not now.
Not ever.
Not when there’s someone I want more than ever.
More than you.
I’m sorry.

I love her.
This girl I met in twilight
Watching the birds flying far away
I watched her, I watched her until the light fades and the moon rises
I watched her until stars lights up skies
I watched her one starry night
And we stood there together…
Not moving or talking.
Just listening to a song.
A song of silence but is the most meaningful of all.

She is special,
This one.
More special than you have ever been to me.
The moment I saw her I know she’s the one.
She came to me in the most unexpected way.
Like a goddess basking in the glory of the twilight…
Like a nymph under the moonlight promise.
Glowing… Shining…
Something… fate leads me to her.
I love her. I’m sorry but I love her so much….

She love me too,
The way you used to.
And I love her more than I ever loved you.
I’m sorry.
What we had is precious.
What She and  have…
Is Magical