The Distinctions between us

Honesty

Noah
I was still thinking about Latifa while driving home.

what went wrong?Did I offend her somehow?was the date so bad? Doesn't she like me as much as I like her?Not to brag but I am irresistible. I always charm everyone especially girls. They can't resist this  handsome face and gorgeous body. but why is it different with Latifa?

These were just a few of the questions running in my mind.I will have to find out when I get home.I'll text her.

I met Seth at his  usual post."Hey boss.How was the lunch?," he started as soon as I reached him.
"I don't want to talk .Not now!"I wasn't  in the mood. How did she do it. I was very excited about two hours ago when I went to pick her up and I'm just as dissapointed coming back. I went to my room and locked myself in.

If it were any other girl out there ,I am sure they'd be so happy about this date and some would go  as far as giving me more than a kiss in the cheeks that I was hoping for.But Latifa is not some other girl and even if she knew my real identity, I am sure she'd still be the insecure girl she is now.

How was she able to do this to me. I was trying very hard to make her  like me but I was the least person she gave attention to.

I can't  help but see all of her whenever I close my eyes. Her smile would light me up in mere seconds. Her eyes ,God her eyes! they are so hazel brown ,so beautiful.When I reached for her hand I felt electric sparks while her hands felt so soft. Even with the long loose dresses and her religious dressing code,her curves were visible and well outlined .God must have created her with so much caution.Everything about her is beautiful.

I decided to make music. It was the best way to deal with my mood. I went to my studio and started making music but I failed because I couldn't function with Latifa in my head.

I sighed in defeat and went took a very cold  shower.I relaxed as I let the cold  water run down my back .

After shower ,I was a little bit fresh and could think.
No one ever says no to Noah.I always get what I want so I am not about to give up on Latifa,my conscience argued. I casually dressed in jeans and  a shirt before I went out.

Latifa
Another date. He said he wanted another date.I did not even refer this to a date.It's a lunch for me and i only thought this was going to be a onetime thing but he wanted more. Truth  is I had already find  this guy kind of adorable.He is so gentle and approachable  and I am sure there is a whole lot More about him that I don't know.But my religion is just as important to obey.Just counting today i have  a whole hill of sins. From the moment i agreed to this lunch i have just disobeyed my Rabb(lord).Ya allah!(Oh Allah!) please fogive me for all my sins and I repent to the most forgiving.

I still can't believe I told him about my crush and I only recently met him. Were those sparks real?  because of them I lost control and as  a result I  became weak.I did not like being weak.As much as I liked him I have to be honest with him and tell him the truth.