The Distinctions between us

Questions

Noah

It has been another week already and Latifa has not texted me making a whole month worth my time with her lost .I feel void.I can't really explain how she's torturing me.Partly ,I think all this while  she only pulled my leg to enjoy my miserable state but partly ,I think there's a good reason behind her behaviour for the past two weeks.

I unbuckled my seat belt but didn't move ,just stared at the door in front of me.

What if she fumes because I came?Last time I checked she warned me not to go inside her friend's house.

Ugh!I don't care anymore I'll go and ask for an explanation.

I  was on my way here last week but then my mum called me and I couldn't have left her like that so I went home to her but didn't tell her about Latifa despite her giving me those puppy eyes.I just gave her a lame reason that I am stressed with all my work;making music,being hosted for shows,magazine and etc.Afterwards we decide to go for an excursion,just the two of us.When I got back which is today,I immediately came here.

I tensed as I walked to the door.My heart  kept drumming inside my chest.I raised my hand ready to knock but stopped midway.I held my breath and counted to three.On three I knocked without hesitation.

shit! I am  kiddish and she's not even present.

It took a while for her to open the door but when she did,she sure left my mouth agape.She looked beautiful though she looked like she had just woken up.she felt like  sunshine on my face and I'd love it if i woke up to this sunshine every morning in my future years.She was wearing sweatpants ,a sweat shirt and a scarf.An odd look but in my eyes so damn attractive.

I looked up.Her face was so adorable with her eyes wide open and her mouth slightly open due to the unexpected visit.I just had the urge to hug her .The next thing she did was slam the door in my face.

Seriously! I am the mad one here.What the heck is wrong with her.I didn't even do anything wrong apart from lying.I have never been this gentle with a girl and she gets a chance only to not appreciate it. I felt my ears heat up and I wanted to punch something real bad.Dang it!

Maybe she really doesn't want anything to do with you.Maybe it's time to let her go.A voice inside my head argued.

But  I felt a pang in my chest.I felt rejected and Heartbroken.Not that there was anything between us but my heart broke into little pieces.
I was just about to turn when the door opened.Then came

"Austin"it was  more like a squeal.

"come in" and I wondered if I should actually let her go.It was clear that she doesn't want me.
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Latifa