The Distinctions between us

Understanding

Noah

Her religion!

It's been about her faith all this while?
Why didn't she tell me about it? Ugh! Now I hate myself for acting  like an asshole.But if that's the case,I like her even more.

But that's exactly what she explain to be forbidden to her.As much as I like the idea of her abiding and being all religious,I still can't help but think her religion is ...a ...difficult one.I don't understand all those terms she used but I understand that she's strictly following her religion.

God! I thought for the first time, there's someone amazing entering my life but it just so happens our different religions doesn't allow us to be together.

Now what am I supposed to do?I don't want to lose her.Only three months remaining before she's out of my life for good.

"I am sorry...I really look horrible right now ..."Ooh sunshine! I could look at you all day.
"I understand if you are upset.Call me all horrible names for not saying a thing for the past two weeks,I deserve it.But I hope you understand I couldn't have picked you over my religion.I am really sorry I am  a practising Muslim and I hope you can forgive me" she finished a tear rolling down her cheek and immediately turned to leave but I gripped her hand fast.

I am not upset with her.I am upset with myself for jumping into conclusions. I deserve those horrible names. I understand now that religion is top priority to her.why is she even apologizing for being a practising Muslim? I am the one that needs her forgiveness for crossing the limits and pushing her to sin.But right now I don't want to lose her.

"Wait .Then can we be friends?"and inwardly I was hoping she says yes.I was desperate.But again she was contemplating and the little hope that I had was diminishing.What now?Aren't they allowed to have boy-friends too?I really don't get their religion.

"Please! I promise Just friends"what am I saying?Will I be able to keep that promise?of course anything so I won't lose her.I looked into those hazel eyes begging them to say yes.

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Latifa

Friends? I knew it...he's my doom.

There's never been such thing as boys and girls being friends.Not in Islam ...No!Even in real life,the boy or the girl ends up falling in love with their childhood best friends.

But this guy....I looked at him.He's eyes were pleading.I doubt his promise of just friends.Can he  keep his promise?He then squeezed my hand gently telling me that he was still waiting for my answer and that he needed a yes.

Enough is enough! All this boy  ever wanted was to spend time and I'm well aware now ,a whole month has come to pass.I'm conversant  with the fact that he is forbidden to me being a non-mahram but he just wants to be friends.