Forgetful {E.D} complete

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"I'll be home later j" I tell James closing the door.i walk to my car slowly.

I drove through the traffic slowly humming with the music. I watch the cars pass me swiftly, while I turn into the parking lot.

I park my car making my way into the place I loved but hated the most

The cemetery. To be more specific Rose Wood Hills cemetery (random ass name :) )

I walk around the cemetery watching for the name 'Stephen stone'. And there it was, bold letters.

I sit down in front of it scanning the stone, feeling my face get hot. It turns from heat to tears.

I slowly swirl my fingers around the dirt

"Hey dad, it's me again umm bre your daughter. I want to talk to you, a little. A few months back I was in a crash I told you a little about that but remember that guy I met? Ethan ya..

He got in acoma not exactly sure how, but I told you I liked him he was different like me different he told me once he was out the hospital he would take me to see dolphins, I was so excited. Was..

Everyday he was asleep I wrote him a letter to you know, understand me better but he used that against me, I think

So one day Grayson called me telling me Ethan needed help so I went to they're house it was around 1:00 am, Ethan destroyed his room, so I sat there trying to talk to him.. he wouldn't answer me but instead used the line 'I liked to plan my death I need to be asked if I'm okay', pretty much what mom told me

It hurt a lot I guess I expected to be less of pain because I would do anything to make him happy but yet here I am crying

James I guess needed a break and took me to this party at west side of town, I don't drink,never not after mom, so I just went upstairs and laid in this persons bed listening to music.. the usual me

I checked the room next to me because I heard glass crack and stuff and it was Ethan.. I didn't talk to him but I cleaned it up. I went down stairs to get water for him and I i can back up to him kissing another girl

He knew very well I liked him, and I don't know if it's on accident or not but I'm in so much pain trying to get someone to love as much as I love them

Yes I said love, I'm sorry dad I let you down. Sometimes I wonder if I can bring you back so you can help me.

Why did you have to go dad? Why?"

I take a deep breath crying. I wouldn't be stopping anytime soon, I wish I could get a reply but that's impossible

I get up walking slowly around the cemetery still crying talking to myself.

I see a boy kicking the dirt around a stone, he seemed pretty sad, I guess I can relate. I keep walking ignoring him

He makes contact with me and I look back, this little fucker

Ethan..
He looks at me and strait down back to the stone and starts kicking it aggressively. What is going on

I walk up to him and pull him back a little, the stone read

'Lisa Dolan' and next to it was 'Sean Dolan' I'm guessing he lost both parents as well

He moves out my grip and pushes me away, I start crying again

"All I've been trying to do is fucking help you Ethan" I yell, he doesn't answer me

"Okay, fuck you know what. If your going to ignore me can I know why?" I question

I get no answer

"Of course not I don't mean a single thing to you, I told you everything about me things I never thought I would be able tell anyone,but you go behind my back and use it against me" I yell walking away back to my car, he walks a separate way

He knows I hate being;

1- ignored
2-annoyed
3-used
4- touched in a cruel way.

But yet again he is using me, annoying me, ignoring me and pushed me..

Who is he?
The love of your life bre..

I walk in my apartment wishing James had left. I swing open the front door to see

Grayson, and Ethan both sitting with my brother watching a football game.

My face filled with anger and dissatisfaction I walk in my room slamming the door. I plop on the bed and start once again crying.

Why am I always crying I used to never cry..

I hear a few nocks on my door but I choose to ignore it. I played some 'kid-cudi' (I love him 🤪)
Humming along the beat.

I still hear loud nocks but I ignore it "bre it's James"

"It's unlocked" I say, my head still stuck on my pillow. The door slowly open the door but I'm not sure who is standing there.

"Bre can you talk to me? I fell like you haven't been the same" he says

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This is dumb asff I wrote 600 more words but on my laptop and it doesn't show on my phone???