Chasing Rainbows

Prologue

Dear Diary,

There's this point in life where you just cannot fight anymore. When you just want to lay down and close your eyes, go into a deep sleep, only to wake up when everything is going well, when the only worries you have is whether or not you're going to pass the finals, or whether Elena is going to choose Damon or Stefan, if Rachel will ever find out that Ross loves her. When you don't have to worry about getting hurt.

How the hell am I supposed to accept the fact that I have no one in my life who I know will stay forever by my side, that I am a lost cause, that I am hopeless, that I have broken into a million pieces.

Just thinking about it messes with my mind so bad, it hurts so much; no one has an idea. The hurt, the pain, the heartbreak; it has changed me. Made me someone I cannot even recognize. I have grown distant. I don't talk much. Not to my family, not to my friends. I write. I read. I watch. Just so I wouldn't think about it. I am trying to escape reality. I am trying to escape the bitterness of life. I am trying everything I can to stay strong but I am tired. I'm tired of crying. Tired of thinking. Tired of doing this. Tired of just waiting for things to get better. I cannot forget it. I cannot forget what happened. I can't. Its not that easy. Its too hard. To just let go of the past and move on. I cannot. I cannot forget it. I cannot move on. And it hurts. Hurts like a fucking dagger just pierced through my heart. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to fight.

Love, K.

Katherine Elizabeth Peterson is a 16 year old girl, who has always seen life as unicorns, rainbows and sunshine. So when all of a sudden she gets thrown into a storm of despair, she does not know what to do. How to escape. Instead, she lets it ruin her. 

Everything happens for a reason, and even a single thread of hope is a very powerful thing.

This is her story.