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Chapter 15

Monday 18th December.
Kie had invited me out, for a meal. I was the first one to arrive closely followed by v and Asher. Kie was last to arrived walking through the doors. Fashionably late per usual. He meets us at the table fluttered like he had rushed to get here. His shaggy hair laying effortlessly over his face hiding his blue eyes.
"Did people order yet" he asks out of breath.
"No, were waiting for twenty minutes for someone to arrive" v says in a harsh tone glaring across the table at it Kie.
"Yeah sorry about that, somthing happened down town, a car crash or somthing" he responds. V let's out an unbaliving sigh and reaches across the table for the food menu.
I get the sense that I'm not being told something. I push the feeling aside placing a strand of hair that had fallen down on to my face back on the top of my head.
"The sushi looks good, right sammy" Kie mocks, this time I don't grit my teeth together instead I shoot him a sly look feeling him to shut up and sure enough he does.
I decided to go with the 8oz stake with a side of fries, peas and onion rings taking care to inform the waitress that the slightest  sign of blood and I will not be paying.
She gives me a rude look which I ignore and go back to my convocation with v.
"So did you get him home okay" I ask her giving my nose a jental tap.
"Yeah and Sam I'm so sorry he hit you, if I would of known he was going to do that I never would of let him" she whispers full of remorse and not wanting anyone else to hear.
"And where were you saturady" I ask Kie.
"Sorry kiddo something came up" he says watching as the waitress walks away.
I rile my eyes, there seems to be a lot if things coming up lately I think to myself. I am startled by a vibration in my chest pocket, like an idiot I had forgotten that I had placed it there.
To Sam
Had fun yesterday, we should meet up again soon.
From Bradley
I can't help but smile, my phone echoes as I type away my reply.
To Bradley
Defently, how about Tuesday if I don't have anything going on.
From Sam
I slip my phone back in to my chest pocket which was kind if pointless becuase half a minute later it vibrates again and then again and again.
"Who's texting you" v asks, asher and Kie looking at me thinking the same thing but leaving veronica, the only ballsy one to ask.
"No one just a friend" I say pushing her question aside.
"You don't smile like that to just a friend Sammy boy" concerned Kie says.
I look up at him shifting my focus from my now unlocked phone to his eyes just long enough for him to distract me while veronica snatchs it from my grip. Instantly I reach to retrieve it but she is too fast and moves out if my reach.
"Hey v, come in give it back" I ask feeling weird to have another person look through my private text messages.
Her mouth drops open in shock.
"Yeah grate,just let me know" she says reading my message frim Bradley aloud.
She takes care looking at my phone screen like she was trying to memorize a image to take in every detail.
"Oh my god" she says.
"What" both me and Kie say in unison.
"Who do you think it is ayair (winky face" she reads another message out loud.
She gasps in realization reverse pinching the screen zooming into a photo.
"Its tottaly fucking you" she says full of cheer.
"He's who" Asher barks braking his vow of silence.
"Sam's Bradley's mystery date" she finally blurts out after leaving us in an awkward suspense for over a minute. Both Kie and Ashers faces drop, gob smacked.
"No way" Kie says cautiously looking over at me.
V slides my phone across the tableacross towards Kie and then to asher like some kind of birthday parsal. I catch a glimpse at the photo that was being passed around. The same photo taken in the coffee house the other day with the words who is Bradley's new man written across the top like a front page from a magazine.
"We wernt on a date, we just went for coffee, is it really that much of a big deal" I say not seeing what the big fuss was about.
"Big deal, big deal, of course this is a big deal, you too had coffee in his love seat and you know how I said someone liked you Yeah, well ding dong" v says in one big long sentence half of the words not regesting n in my head straight away.
My mouth fall low and my eyes grew large. No this can't be right, he doesn't know  me how on earth could he like me. I'm tempted to ask why she means by love seat by nothing comes out of my mouth and I think I can gather a pretty good picture all in my own without her telling me. Asher slowly slips my phone back towards and I slip it back in to my pocket not bothering to message Bradley back. Our food arrives and we eat in an awkward silence, v trying her hardest to brake the ice but nothing worked bot even her cheesy joke about cows being cannibals if they eat cheese.grew
I didn't know what to think, somthing about the while thing gave me a strange Feeling, not bad not even happy the feeling was more like a relief of pressure.
Later on that night I find myself thinking about Bradley and his dimpals. All day I had been receiving messages from people back home asking questions each question duffrent but at the same time exactly the same.
How did you meet Bradley
When did you meet Bradley
Can you get me Bradley's autograph
Are you and Bradley like yano dateing

All I ignored, what busyness of there's was it. It is my life and I don't owe anyone and explanation sertinally not people that didn't want anything to do with me until they soor the picture of me with him.i
What is wrong with Me,I try to push him out of my mind but the more I try the harder it becomes. His face swimming around my mind clouding my judgment.
What if?
No there's no way.
I have feelings for Bradley. My head falls back resting on the back of the couch. I can't like Bradley, I'm not gay, the thought has never crossed my mind, I've had girlfriends, I have Ella. No there had to me another explanation for how Im feeling.
He had text me several times. Each time I couldn't bring myself to reply. The though of even sending a message sent my stomach in to a parade of flips an avary of small birds flying around inside my stomach.
My phone vibrates, incoming call.
It's BradleyI.
I answer.
"I'm outside your door" he says, the phones goes dead. I open the door to the room and sure enough Bradley stand directly in front of me he wavy brown hair on top of his head and his denim jacket hanging loosely off his broad shoulders.
"Can i come in" he asks looming down at the ground with his hand on the back of his head.
I love a side to let him in, I can not help but inhale the the sweet oder of his perfume as he walk by.
"Hey, listen I know your straight and I'm sorry if v scared you a little, but I really do t see what is wrong with going for coffee. It's insane that for some reason becuase I'm gay I can not have male friends without the world thinking where going to hook up, an it really pisses me off that social media blows things up making a mountain out of a mole hill" when he finish talking a see a year in his eye and a hunt of grief hits me. I understand where he us coming from I can not hang around with a gay guy without people assuming things. No how much he tries somthing I side me still pushes. I feel the need to tell him not to apologise that there is somthing inside of me that longs for his touch but like always the words don't form in my mouth.
After some time sitting in silence Bradley finally tells me that he has to leave I walk him to the door giving him a friendly smile as he walks away turning the corner.
Goodbye I whisper to myself k owing he can't here me and I think somthing finally snaps. Like a box inside of me has cracked slowly dripping out my feeling. My feelings of passion towards him and only him.