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Chapter 20

tuesday 2nd January.
Bradley had come round to early Tuesday morning to see me off. The early morning su light was warm against my skin, my skin was still pale compared to Kie's. Time had gone by so quickly that it made me sick. I had taken nothing with me. I place my hand against the window pane looking out on Kie's back garden. His mother had an excellent eyes for gardening. Perfectly trimmed bushes shaped like strange deformed temples. All kinds of plants placed on either side of a red stone pathway that leads down towards a cute little seating area with a large canopy and a barbeque that for some reason had notit been used while iI had been here. i force myself to check the time ogf my flight every five minutes just to make sure that i dont forget or to make sure iI have the right time in my mind.
"So you excited to get back home" Bradley asks wrapping his arms around my neck from behind. I inhale his sweet sent with a hint of sweat. I presume he had been to the gym before coming to see me off.
"I kinda don't won't to leave" I tell him turning around still his arms around my neck. Bradley looks down at me a happy smile plasterd over his face. He let's out a sigh and speaks.
"You know this isn't goodbye"
"I hope not" I reply resting my head against his collarbone.
Kie had left the house a while ago to get me a present as he said to take back to London with me. He wouldn't tell me what he was getting but then again when in the whole time of me being in new York did he ever give me a straight forward answer to anything. It was one of the things that I have learned to love about him.
The door opens down stairs and I move away from Bradley.
"I guess Kie's home" Bradley says pulling me towards the door and down the stairs. We meet Kie in the kitchen holding a bag filled with all kinds if goodies. I hope there are treats in their for my trip back.
Kie gives me the bag and tells me not to open it until I am on the plane.
"I guess we better get going then right" Kie says than opens the front door. We walk down to Kie's car and pile in. Kie driving me in the passenger seat and Bradley in the seat behind me. One hand over the head rest resting on my shoulder. It was strange. I didn't even know what was happening between me and him and that I had only know him a few weeks but every was moving so slowly. I feel like I have know him for year. We were so comfortable around each other and he had shown me feelings that I had never felt before. It took us forty minutes to get to the airport from Kie's house and when we did it was filled with people. Bearly enough room to fit through.
Kie gives me a hug goodbye and forces me to promise to talk to him more and I Do, it has been strange seeing him but it was that good sort of strange. The one that warms your heart the one that makes you so happy to be alive.
Love does not make happiness, the people we see and the people we choose to spend our time with are what make happiness.
"You better not forget about me Sammy boy" Bradley's whispers in to my ear. Which almost makes me laugh.
"Me forget You, never. The real question is are you going to forget me" I say placing my hands on his hips with raised eyebrows.
It was true. I had never felt like this for another person before In my life but Bradley. Bradley had had these feeling. He had been with other guys.  He wasn't new to this world like I was and that scared me. All it took was some pretty boy to come walking past and just like that I would be out of his mind. And having so much distance between us just gave further evidence to my thoughts. When awake he would be asleep and when asleep he would be awake. Leaving a few hours gap inbetween communication.
"I assure you Sammy, I'm never going to forget you" Bradley says placing a kiss on my forehead. I keep my finger entwined with his until the last possible second. Both mine and his arms falling through the air creating a distance between us. And then he's gone with no sign of coming back.