Forever and Always

Chapter 51

Harry's POV:

I wondered if April had talked to Sophie, if she had broken up with Troy, if she planned to break up with me.  If she did break up with me I don't know how I'd handle it, she means the world to me.  I've never felt like this for anyone, and even though we're young, I know she's the one I want to marry and spend the rest of my life with.

I sat in the lunch room, Louis didn't come up for lunch, he had much better food downstairs, I ran out and I didn't want to ask him, plus I wanted to talk to John about the things that have happened with April.

John sat across from me.

"Haven't seen you in a while." he smiled, I smiled back.

"Yeah, I guess I should come up here more often." I laughed, we got more serious then.

"How've you been?" he asked.

"It's okay, I'm getting off the drugs slowly, but April cheated on me.  She may still be with this guy, her best friend, and I can't do anything about it. She still wants to marry me, but in 10 years she may not feel that way if she continues to be with this guy.  I know they're friends, but she promised me she wouldn't do this.  It was my biggest fear, and of course it's happened when I can't do a single thing about." I explained.

"Well, I wish I could help you, but April is just confused.  Her life is such a mess she needed someone to be there for her, and you couldn't because you're here, so, she went to the one thing she knew.  She'll get over it I'm sure, she loves you, you know that right?" I shrugged.  "Well she does, so I wouldn't worry too much, things like this happen, but she'll come around."

"Thanks." I said, he smiled at me. "How are your wife and kids?" I asked.

"They're good, I still feel terrible, but it's nice to know that she knows I didn't mean to and that she still loves me, and so do the kids.  They're very happy, the school year is over in a few months, so the kids are very happy about that." I laughed a little, and realized that I won't graduate with April, I might get my diploma, but I won't be there to actually receive it with her, she won't see me there, I won't be able to watch her walk up there and get the thing she has worked so hard for.  It's in two years since she's a sophomore and all, but it's weird to think about that now.

"That's good." I said, and it was silent.

"Don't worry too much, it's gonna be one year next week, so only 9 more years to go.  It'll go by quickly if you don't think about it too much." he said and reached across the table to pat my shoulder.  I sighed and thought about how I could possibly not think about April for the next 9 years.  It was impossible right now.

"I'll try not to." I said, laughing a little.

He has to understand that I can't stop thinking about April.  She's everything to me, if I lose her I won't have anything left. No one to go home to, no one to support me in my messed up decisions.  I won't know what to do with myself if she's gone.

John left, and I went back down to my cell.  The guards walked me back, they all looked a little scared.  Probably because I was one of the only people down in those cells that was actually conscious. 

Louis sat by the window/hole between our cells. He was doing something weird with a piece of paper that he managed to get from that guy he gets all that food from.  I can never remember his damn name. 

"Whatcha doing over there?" I asked him, sitting by the hole.

"Trying to do some origami." he said.

"Well it's not going very well is it?"

"Really? I think I'm doing a very good job at making a disfigured swan." he joked, we both laughed a little.

He threw the disfigured swan over in a corner, with a whole bunch of other crumpled up papers. He grabbed another and began making a swan again.

"How long have you been making those disfigured swans?" I asked next.

"All day basically, Sophie always liked swans and I was taught one time how to make one.  Obviously I can't remember really, or make it cleanly." Louis explained.

"Well that one seems to be going well." I said, Louis nodded. 

I stood up and walked over to grab my journal, I hadn't written in it for a while because of my arm, my arm still wasn't fully healed but it was a lot better now. I'm supposed to keep it on for a few more weeks. 

After retreiving the journal and pencil I sat back down by Louis.

April 15th

I miss April like crazy, John tells me if I stop thinking about her the years will go by quicker and I'll be back with her before I know it.  But how can I stop thinking about her? She's perfect in my eyes, and my entire world. No one has cared about me the way she does, and I haven't cared about someone the way I care about April. Yeah I care about John and Louis, but not in the same way. Sure I'd kill anyone who hurt any of them, but April is special.  I can't crawl into bed with Louis or John and tell them about my day, I can only do that with April. It's harder for me to tell the other two about my secrects, but not with April.  She knows everything about me, well almost everything. 

I don't know really. Just thinking about her makes me smile, and I know it's super cheesy and shit but it's true.  She's so beautiful, and just little things she does make me happy. God I sound so stupid right now, I'm just gonna stop.

-Harry.

I stopped writing and threw the journal back across the room and looked through the hole at Louis.  He had made five perfect swans now, and was asleep.  I sighed and decided to sleep where I was. Closing my eyes and then slowly drifting away.

A/N:

Hopefully you all liked it! It's kind of short but here it is! This book will be ending soon which means next I can finish For You, which I decided to put on hold because it was all too confusing with school and two stories and blah blah. Anyway I'm not sure how many chapters exactly but I don't think it'll be more than 15, it might be, but idk.

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