Bleeding love

He made it go away

Nialls pov             I wasn't at school today or the next or the day affter that . You know how I said my life is difficult well I woke up that morning to get ready for school but before I could evan wake up fully my mum bust in and slapped me and started yelling at me for not doing the dishes .        But that boyfriend of hers is the real reason I didn't go to school I forgot to pray that moring and well he beat the living shit out of my and I didn't want to go to school with all tho bruises so I have been waiting fot them to fade .       Ugggg niall why are you so worthless why dose your mum hate you and why dose your brother just lock him self up why niall why do you cut why can't you love the one you love why .  I slowly get off my bed and go to the bathroom thinking well fuck it that razor is the only thing that will make me feel better there's no relly changeing that it is the only thing that will make me feel better so .     I reach the bathroom and pick up the razor and pull down my pants so I can cut on my legs . I cut 7 times and watch the red sticky stuff come out and feeling of pain take over and clear my head for a short while and then I stand up and wash them and bandage them up. And lie on my bed till I here a knock on my door . Come in I say . It my mum . Niall the hemmings family is coming over so be good they have a boy your age and I hope you make me look good ok . I nodded yes mum . She walks out and I feel my heartbeat get faster omg luke is gonna be in my house the man I love is gonna be In my house .     Ok niall quit fangirling your niall horan your life sucks but people think you cool calm yourself dammint!!!!              I hear the doorbell and I hear mum say please come In luke niall is up stairs if you wanna hangout with him .      Next thing I know someone is knocking on my door omg omg shut up brain no one asked you . Come in I finally say .  Then the next thing I know the most beautiful thing in the world steps in too my room . Hey he says hey I say back. He sits down on my bed but when he dose are arms brush togather and something strange happens I feel no pain I don't feel worthless I feel happy . Umm sorry he says. I smile don't be it all good. We sit and talk for what feels like forever and it felt so good I felt like someone actually listen and cared but what was said next broke my heart . When we go back to school to want me to Prtend this didn't happen.  I felt so bad no luke this happened I like that this happen relly I had a good time you like have no idea.     He smiled and said thank you niall I am relly glad am in you life now . I felt relly happy but sadly it ended all to soon and he had to leave and the happy feeling was gone and I missed it so I hurried and went to the bathroom wanting the next best thing to luke my razor I re cut open the cuts on my legs and let the pain clear my head affterwords I re bandage them and go lie in my bed and fall asleep with thoughts off the boy that I love with all my being