Bleeding love

What do I say

Lukes pov          Beep beep. Luke get your ass up for school !!!! my lovely father said.  I get up and get dressed and go to the bathroom and reach for my razor ok little buddy lets get this done with. I put the cold blade against my skin and watch it tear the skin and watch the blood come out.          All last night I thought about niall he actually wanted to talk to me wow I mean wow . What if he talks to me at school what do I do what do I say I mean. OK luke quit fangirling it not like he will and plus if he dose it not a big deal right ? WRONG ! That a huge fuckin deal when your in love with someone .       I slowly look down and bandage my cuts and then walk down to the front door and open it to my surprise I see niall about to knock . Umm hey niall . holy shit what is he doing here . Hey luke umm can we um well talk it relly important . What the hell do I say  . Umm ya sure. I slowly shut the door behind me .        We start walking down the way away from school we went down this road and turned down this trail till we were at this beautiful waterfall. It beautiful . I say . Niall smiles and says ya I come here to think . I can see why.I say back. Niall grabs my hand and says luke I need to tell you something ok please just listen and no question and dont interrupt me till the end ok.  I was relly confused was this relly happening I finally nodded . Niall nodded back . Ok well luke I love you I have every since I seen you but the thing is I cant love you . You see my mom divorced my dad and Well got with this guy and they are relly churge and well my mum has like well kinda gone mad and if I date you my mum with kick me out and disowne me and my new dad beats me and my dose nothing nothing at all so well I cut but luke when I was with you last night I didn't feel the need to pick up the razor amd well I just had to say that . Niall finally finished well wow that's wow. I look niall and see tears in his eyes I wipe theam away and say you basically just said my life . Niall looked up relly . Ya I said . Me and niall sat and talked for hours about everything we ditched school but we finally had to leave and before I left me and niall both agreed that me and him had well a bleeding love . I went home and went up to my room to think my dad was passed out drunk and I just thought wow my life is fucked up.  And I slowly drifted off to sleep .