Dear diary, today was fine, I was being fake all day. I smiled. I laughed. When my friend said: "How are you?" I said "Fine." She said back: "No your not, tell me whats wrong." She's the only person who knows all of my secrets. Except one. Which only my sister knows. I didnt tell her, but she was there and that's the only reason she knows about it. Well anyway I said like 2 or 3 days ago I would include lyrics to one of my songs in here so here goes nothing.
WHY by Kyle K.: Why does everything go wrong? Why cant I be a regular boy? Do regular boys have to be scared to tell their parents that they are a boy? I dont think so. But why couldn't I have born a regular boy? I never knew I was right. When I was 6 years old my mom made me wear a dress, I asked If i could wear a tie instead and she said No. I asked her Why. She said because I wasnt a boy. Ever since then I suspected something was wrong with me. I never wanted to wear girly clothes, I never wanted to have long hair, I always wanted to dress like a boy and I always wanted "boy hair" as they call it. But why? Why do I have to wait until I'm 16 to be a regular boy? Its so damn frustrating, All I want is to be accepted for being me. People being so damn disrespectful. But why? Why do I have to be a target for bullying? I didnt do anything but here I am just being me, and people dont like it when I am being me. I cant put up with this anymore, I just want it all to end. Why wont the pain go away? Why does everybody hate me? I mean the person who I loved most had to leave me and now I am alone and I aint got nobody. I look for people to be there for me but they just go and tell other people. I cant live like this any more. Fuck this shit, I am just going to break. But why? Why do I have to be depressed? I cant get out of my head. I cant get out of my feelings. So someone come and save me. Actually only one person can save me. But why? Why cant life just be a little easier? Why cant i just not be depressed no more? Please just answer my questions, this aint getting better no matter how hard i try to make myself feel better. There's only one thing that can help but it aint gonna happen right now.
Okay so my hands are tired from typing so bye.
-KYLE
