Dymond in the Dirt

Poet

POET

Today was Monday the weekend had flew by so quick, I didn't want to go to school. The good thing about it was that I was going to see our new and that Thursday was the last day before spring break.

Carter was taking me to school again, he had been doing this ever since the first time he picked me up. We walked into school together like normal but this time we were holding hands. I don't know if we were official or not but kisses became more frequent and public. Hugging and grabbing each through periods, we just like two little kids all day.

Ariana had surprisingly hadn't bugged me today, she didn't even look my way. Lunch time came, Me and Carter sat on the patio and are our Chinese take out privately.

"I wanna learn how to use chop sticks" Carter said playing with the sticks. See I was a master with the chop sticks.

"I'm thinking about cutting my hair" I said

"What? No don't do that"

"Why not?" I asked

"Because I like your hair like this" he said

"It's just some shoulder length bullshit I'll grow back" I said

I stopped talking when I noticed Ariana come in the patio, she head straight toward us.

"Hey guys I don't mean to disturb your lunch but Poet can we speak in private?" Ariana said

"Do I need a blade?" I asked

"No girl, I just wanna talk" she said putting her hands up. She looked nice today I must say, she had her hair in a new style & some makeup on.

"Alright. Watch my food for me, notice I said watch not eat" I said to Carter . He nodded "gimme kiss first" he said . . . Was he being petty? I pecked his lips and turned to Ariana, We walked only a few steps where we previously was.

"So wassup?"

"Poet I wanna say I apologize for everything, I shouldn't of gotten jealous. It was only a petty crush and I took it too far" she said

I could smell the bullshit !

"Ok" I said

"And I'm hoping that one day we could be friends again because you were really a cool person" she said

"Umm yeah one day but my foods getting cold so excuse me" I said before turned around and walked back over to Carter.

"Bye guys" she said as she left

"What did that bitch want?" he asked

"She was Apologizing, it's bullshit though but why you calling her a bitch like that?" I asked

"Don't you call her that?"

"Yeeah but that different, you said it like you hated her or something"

"I don't hate her she just did some fucked up shit in the past" he said finished off MY FOOD !!!

"Like what?" I asked

"Let's not talk about it. I wanna talk about you and me my house after school"

"Can't my Dads girlfriend is taking me out"

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Sydney picked me up in her Porsche and took me to the house. It was near the school, it was plain but at the same time big but no where near as big as Carter's. I picked out my room mostly ignoring Sydney's ass. We'd be moving in next week and I could not wait to start packing.

Sydney had switched out me and could take me shopping but I wasn't trippin. I didn't want this chicks money I wanted to know if she was with my Dad forreal because my Dad was saying some crazy stuff about her. Like how he wants to marry her and stupid shit.

I was never getting married. Relationship killers are always babies and marriage. . .

"You know I really love your Dad" she said as we were riding

"Oh forreal" I typing on my phone

She sighed "listen Poet I've been nothing but nice to you and your still stand offish towards me. Why don't you like me? or any girl that your dad dates?" She asked

"Is it because I'm not your mom? Do you want your mom and Dad to be together?" asked

"No no I don't want my Mom and Dad to be together! I don't want my dad with bitches like my Mom and I'm just tryna make sure you're not one of them!" I said getting a little pissed at the sound of the word 'Mom' I didn't dislike her it's just that I didn't like any female coming in my territory and trying to take my dad away from me. My mom was already gone . . .

"I don't you think it's wrong for you to refer to your mom as a 'bitch'? she gave you life"

"That 'BITCH' gave me hell ! she gave all of us hell, and then fucking left my brother, my Dad, and me heartbroken! So don't go defending her cause you don't know her !"I said sternly

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to offend you . . . I just wanted to know you didn't like me"

"I don't dislike you I just got to get use to you. Now let's just drive home in a peaceful silence"

I blamed my mother for why I was this way . . . She was just like me well the person who I use to be but worse. I was just following in her foot steps I thought it was okay to do the things I saw my mother doing. She ain't never taught me no better. I think she hated me . . . When I was 14 her man had raped me and I called the police on him afterwards. She got mad when he went to jail so she gave me up to my Dad.

I could remember the painful things she said to me on the bus ride to my Dads.

FLASHBACK

I watched as my mom's skinny leg bounced up and down as we rode the Metro Am at 1:00 am. Her arms were crossed and she kept looking around like she was paranoid, she was always paranoid when she was high.

I always had thought my mom was a Latino beauty, with a hour glass figure that I hoped to inherit someday but that was before the drugs. I had inherited my black ass Daddy's nose. She was find but That was before her and my Dad broke up. Now she was skinny and pale.

She caught me looking at her and her facial expression went from paranoid to pure disgust "what you looking at snitch! I should've named you snitch not Poet!"

"But-

"But my ass you should've kept your ass quiet! you should've came to me first not the police! Its 2 things I don't fuck with that's police and snitches, I don't fuck with snitches Poet!" I couldn't believe she was talking to me like I was someone off the streets.

"But I'm you're daughter not snitch. You brought me into this world, your suppose to love me no matter what" I cried

"First of all I didn't want to have your ass in the first damn place because I knew you'd cause me trouble but your daddy wanted you ! so you should expect for him to love you 'no matter what'. I didn't want you or that nergo"

She had to be high because I've never heard her say things like this. Maybe that's how she really felt ,I just shut the fuck up from there on. I didn't want to hear anything else.

FLASHBACK OVER

My mom cheated on my Daddy so he left her, He loved her but she didn't love him. He was a fool to fall in love and have a child by her. He knew she was a slut from the start but he didn't care he excepted it. . . I hope one day Someone will except me while knowing my past, I'd never do them wrong like she did.