Dymond in the Dirt

Its a . . . . !

Day by day my stomach was growing. I was now 5 and a half months but it felt like it had been so much longer. . . After that day in the restaurant Carter was blowing me up asking me if I was pregnant & if he was the daddy. He knew it was his that's why he was blowing me up. I eventually replied simply with a 'yes , it's yours' . He texted me a couple of times and called me but I didn't respond. . .

A week later he popped up to my house while I was sleeping which resulted in him and Jerome fighting. I couldn't tell you who won because I didn't watch, All I know is my Dad and Sydney broke it up and Jerome didn't have a scratch on him.

Jerome had been super supportive during this pregnancy, my Dad and Sydney were too but not as much as my brother. He went to every doctors appointment so far and he's been helping me buy all the pampers and clothes. I really hoped for a boy but everybody says I look like I'm having a girl but what the hell do they know? they aren't doctors!

If I have a boy I'm naming him Kaiden and if I'm having a girl I don't know because I don't want a girl!!!!
But if I do have a girl I will still love her and spoil her to death.

Today was the day I was finding out the gender. Last time I went the baby had it's legs crossed but I could've sworn I seen a wee wee lol.

"Taylor" the nurse called out as she came out, I smiled and got up with Jerome. We walked to the room with her were they checked my pulse , blood pressure, and heart beat. It seemed like forever till the doctor came in but he did. He laid me down pulled my dress up and squirted the cold light blue gell on my round belly.

Boom boom . boom boom. It was my baby's heart beat we all heard as the doctor rolled the remote thingy on my stomach.

"There's your baby!" he said

"Is it a girl?" I asked

"Man all I see is black & white" Jerome said

I laughed at how hard he stared.

"Okay what do you want?" the doctor asked

"A boy" I said

"Aw well looks like you having a . . . B- girl!" he said

My face dropped . I had become so sensitive and emotional , I was actually crying. I cried every time I didn't get what I want , I cried for Taco Bell once.

"But I wanted a boy" I sobbed

"Aw it's okay there's always next time" the doctor said

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On the way back we stopped at Wendy's , I got a almond berry chicken salad because that was me & my baby's favorite. She would move every time I ate.

As we were Pulling up to the drive way . . . I noticed Sydney & Carter sat on his car. I was gonna kill her for telling him! I kinda knew Sydney was still contacting Carter, She kept trying to get me to talk to him.

"I'm gonna beat his ass" Jerome said

"NO! Jerome chill I'm gonna talk to him go in the house"

"Ight man if you need me I'm in my room" he said

I got out and walked over to Sydney and Carter "it's a girl" I said giving Sydney the ultra sound picture, she smiled .

"I'm gonna go show your Dad, Carter wants to talk to you, I told him you were going to the doctor" she said . I watched her walk in the house buying myself some more time before I had to deal with Carter.

"Why you not responding to my calls, & Text ? I've been doing everything to in contact with you" he asked

"Don't come at me like that Carter, I haven't been responding because I don't want to talk to you"

"You got my baby in you and I'm worried about the baby. You could pick up the phone and tell me how he or she's doing" he said

"She . . ." I said

He smirked and looked at my stomach. Why did he have to be so attractive, I could've melted with just that. He got all muscular too. Maybe it was the hormones.

He rubbed my stomach and she kicked "what you naming her?"

"Violet" I said , I hadn't thought about it till I said it. Violet was one of my favorite colors. She kicked as he was rubbing my stomach , he smiled "she kicked" he said

DUH ! , the baby is in my stomach I should know!!!

"Listen I know your enjoying this whole bonding thing you got going on but I'm starving" I said

"Let me take you to get something to eat"

"Oh, you really wanna be seen out in public with a pregnant hoe? you thought I forgot huh ? just because I'm having your baby doesn't mean were back cool and we probably will never be. No you cannot take me to get something to eat, I don't trust you"

He put his hands in his pockets and sighed "Poet you really think I meant all that shit?" he asked looking at his shoes.

"Yes I do. you were mad and saying what you felt"

"No I was mad and hurt, I just wanted to hurt your feelings things got out of hand and I wanna apologize" he said

"I accept your apology but If I wasn't pregnant this would've never happened" I said

"It would have because I'm not that type of dude and you know that"

"Then why did you say that whole boyfriend of the week thing at the restaurant?" I said

"I was still mad , and I was even madder I seen you with another dude I thought you moved on" he said

"That's cute. I'm going inside ill talk to you later" I said but before I could turn away he grabbed me into a gentle hug. I didn't hug back even though I wanted to, he needed to know I was mad. I wasn't forgiving that easy . . . Why? so I could get hurt again?

Can you blame me? the one person I trusted , and fell in love with broke my heart. The one person who made me feel better broke my heart. The one person who made me forget about all the pain of the past broke my heart !

You could fix a broken heart but once you put the pieces back together it'll never be the same.

"I'm sorry" he said in my ear, I could feel him sniffing my hair.