Dymond in the Dirt

Second chance?

POET

He couldn't even look at me but I could look at him. I wanted him to apologize to me and make it all better but he couldn't. What he said had stuck to me like glue, it hurt me. How could I be with a guy who could switch the script up so quick! I couldn't believe he had called me over, I had my brother in the car just in case. I didn't trust him anymore.

"Look I wanna say I'm sorry the way I did that shit was not right no matter what you did to me that wasn't right" he said

"It's just been bothering me because I did you wrong, cause . . . I . . . Really .... love you Pee-"

"Don't call me Pee" I said

"I know you're mad I would be too"

"I'm more hurt then Mad. I can't You let that old shit ruin us . . ."

"We could fix this" he said sincerely , he looked like a puppy but I wasn't having it.

"No we can't" I shook my head "I opened up to you and fell in love with you and did me so wrong. I really hate you right now and I can't stand to even look at you no more but I am now so you know I mean this" I had to be cold, I wanted him to feel the pain I felt "Im sick and tired of people hurting me and I'm sick and tired of hurting myself"

"So I don't get a second chance?" he asked

"Hell no. You showed me your true colors , your fake as fuck just because we fell out you fucked with the one person you couldn't stand just to hurt me. The one person that put me out there . . . You let her embarrass me"

"I didn't-"

. . . Jerome began shaking me waking me out of my dream. For a minute I thought that was real, it had been a week and still Carter failed to contact me. I expected him to show up with a bouquet of roses and a apology but no.

I wasn't gonna just stay inside and cry all day but I had no friends so I was in the house.

"Wake up doctors appointment" Jerome said

I got up and got dressed, today will be my first doctors appoint for my baby. I was kinda excited to know how far along I am and when exactly is my due date.

Jerome and I rode to the appointment in my New car. It felt good knowing that I didn't have to depend on my Dad to take me where I needed to go.

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After my doctors appointment Jerome treated me out to lunch. I found out that I was almost 3 months which meant 3 more months till I find out the gender, and 6 more months till my baby is here.

"I hope it's a boy" Jerome said

"Me too"

"You could name him Jerome" he said eating his burger

"Maybe in another life. If it's a boy I wanna name him Alston. I can't believe I went 2 whole months without knowing I was pregnant" I said

"How you gonna just brush past the whole name situation?"

. . .

"You heard me?" he said

. . . .

"Earth to pee! Ay" he repeated

. . . . Something else had my attention. It was Carter & Hamilton , they sat down across the restaurant with a couple of girls.

"Is that him?" Jerome asked

As I directed my attention back towards my plate, I nodded feeling my stomach turning.

"You sure you don't want me to beat his ass?" he asked cracking his knuckles

"Don't feel good, I'm going to the bathroom" I said getting up

"You want me to come with you?"

"No it's fine" I said before I rushed to the bathroom.

I busted in the bathroom and into a stall, the girls that were in there looked at me crazy. I locked the stall and began throwing up. I guess my baby doesn't like ribs , I hope she or he likes tacos because I'll go crazy with out them.

I kneeled over trying to catch my breath while so I heard the girls conversing.

"Carter is so fine" said one girl

"Right your lucky but Hamilton is decent looking, it probably would last long anyway" the other girl said

I guess these two were their dates. I stood and listened at the stall.

"I really like Carter like I wanna take this serious"

"Y'all just met, and he's hella quiet how you 'really like him'?"

I stepped out of the stall catching the girls attention, I went to the sink and washed my hands. They were caking on makeup and still talking about Carter & Hamilton.

I guess he was moving on already . . . Damn we haven't even been broken up for a good month yet he's dating again.

'"I can't be stuck on him I have a baby to think about now" I thought as I patted my hands dry with the paper napkins. I stepped out of bathroom and I immediately froze. . . Carter , and my brother were waiting in front of the bathroom but they weren't together. Carter had a shocked expression on his face while my brother looked irritated.

I wasn't gonna say anything but Jerome just couldn't help himself. As we walked away he turned around and said . . .

"Ay ! You the one who dumped her and kicked her out your house?!" Jerome was loud as hell but there wasn't many people around the bathroom section but the ones who were there were looking.

I was speechless like I had saw a celebrity. I was scared as I clung on to Jerome's arm, Jerome has an anger problem. I hated when he got like this.

"Yeah and who the fuck are you? oh I know, her new boyfriend of the week right?"

I see he was still mad. A week ago hearing him say that would've hurt my feelings but now I just don't care anymore. He was acting like another outsider looking in , he was acting just like the rest of them. Carter this isn't you.

"No I'm her fuckin brother and I don't appreciate you talkin about my sister like that!!!" Jerome pulled his arm away from me and got closer to Carter. Apart of me was still angry , still mad and wanted Jerome to beat his ass but a big part of me still cared about him.

Carter was a little shocked that it was my brother, yeah the crazy drug dealer I told him about. . .

"Man that's between me and your sister, you know what your sister been doing?"

"That was 2 years ago fool ! and everybody got a past but unlike her my past is real fucked up so I don't mind crushin a lil nigga like you!" He got in Carter's face, Carter stood there standing his ground.

"Jerome stop!" I said forcefully pulling his arm .

"This is not good for me right now!" I said , Jerome sighed.

"You better be glade she pregnant or I would've beat your ass right here right now! but I'm in town I'll see you around" Jerome said

"Let's go Pee before I get crazy on his dumb ass and go to jail" Jerome grabbed my hand and pulled me all the way to the car.

I hadn't even noticed he let the whole pregnancy thing slip, until I got into the car .