Our Deepest Scars

Chapter 4

Camila woke up the following morning at 4am. Upon hearing the buzzing of her alarm, she stretched and rubbed her exhausted eyes. She was still tired due to the nightmares that had kept her up for hours in the night.

Sitting up slowly, her first conscious thought was of Lauren; of what had happened between them the previous day. Camila had gone from feeling safe and comforted by the green eyed girl to wanting to slap her across the face only hours later. But she had promised herself that she wasn't going to talk to Lauren, despite wanting nothing more than to either work things out with the older girl or to argue further.

A noise from her phone startled her out of her thoughts and she grabbed it, unlocking it to read the message she had just received. It was from her mom:

What happened at the meet and greet mija? Are you okay? love you xxx

The brunette smiled down at her phone once she had read the text. Her mom was truly her best friend and Camila missed her a lot while she was on the road. Especially recently, since she had been feeling more and more isolated from everyone around her. She missed her sister Sofi too - she was ten years younger than Camila and yet still managed to look after her better than she could herself.

Camila exhaled deeply, feeling the familiar butterflies fluttering around in her stomach. They weren't playing another show on the Reflection tour for a few days, and instead were doing interviews and radio shows, as well as a photo shoot that morning. Photo shoots weren't much fun for Camila, as she wasn't very confident in the way she looked. In everyone else's eyes she was very beautiful but in her view, she had so many faults it was impossible to count. But she had to accept the fact that it was a part of her role as a member of Fifth Harmony to partake in things that she was uncomfortable with in order to promote their music and image.

Tugging the curtain across her bunk, she leaned out and stood up, gazing around the small space where the other bunks were situated.

"Hey Mila, how're you feeling today? Or should I say tonight, since the sun isn't even up yet?" Dinah joked, her loud voice coming from a bunk a few meters away from where Camila was stood.

"Shhhh, Dinah, the others are asleep! And I'm fine," Camila said in a hushed tone, well aware that being noisy would only result in annoyance from the other girls.

"They're already awake." Dinah didn't quieten her tone. She jumped out of the bunk and made her way towards the door. "They're in here."

She pulled open the door and Camila noticed that Ally, Normani and Lauren were already sat on the couch in the living area of the bus. They all looked sleepy and were clutching at mugs of hot coffee like lifelines.

"Morning, Camila." two voices said. Camila didn't even have to look to know who hadn't greeted her. Lauren was curled up in the corner of the L-shaped couch, staring into her coffee like she was examining her own reflection.

Exasperated, Camila plastered a smile on her face and said hello to Ally and Normani. She entered the room and gratefully took a cup of liquid that was offered to her, taking a small sip.

"What're we doing today?" Ally questioned, getting up gingerly from the sofa.

"We have a photo shoot in a few hours and then that's pretty much it for today. The shoot will take a while though, so don't make any plans before midday," a knowledgeable man on their team named Mark replied.

"Oh my god, we actually have time to relax today!" Normani laughed, a smile on her face. "I didn't think this day would ever come."

"What do you want to do this afternoon?" asked Dinah, addressing all the girls but looking particularly towards Camila.