letter exchange 8
dear zach,
im so sorry...i am so selfish. i dont get why you love me! all i ever do is rant to you! ive never even said i love you back! i dont care what you say anymore! every fricking one of these scars on my body i deserve. kyla is right! im so ugly and fat its insane! i deserve to be anorexic! i just want to be skinny and pretty! i can only be pretty if im skinny! i just need to be skinnier!
you want the truth, it hurts so bad making myself throw up, but ya know what?! im going to keep doing it! i want to keep doing it until i see my ribs. sorry about the tears all over this paper.
i like the pain when i cut myself or make myself puke because it takes my mind off of all of my emotional problems!
this school wont help, nothing will help. youre probably the only one that can help me.
ugh. -lindsey
dear lindsey,
lindsey, are you okay? scratch that, i know youre not. what are you doing? oh my god. you have no idea how terrified i am right now. you are not selfish, okay? you are just hurting and thats not your fault. i hope im not too late. holy cow. ah. if i dont get a reply within four days, i have to tell duke and your parents. i have to. i dont care that you never say i love you back. saying you love someone a huge deal to you and i respect that, its never bothered me.
god dammit! this is all my fault! i shouldve never put those words in that letter! thats probably why theres a dang restraining order on me.
please be okay. -zach
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letters with zach
Teen FictionA realistic fiction of a girl who suffered from self-harm, anorexia, anxiety (and more diseases like) and a boy who tries his best to help her through it all...over letters.
