letters with zach

letter exchange 6

letter exchange 6

dear zach,

the girl that i said was mean to judy and i, yea her name is monique. she hit me, i only have a fat lip though. i still cried. not because of the blow, she said some cruel words to me, zach. i dont understand the people at this school! were all hurt and broken and trying to be normal again!

she said i was ugly and everything i ever did to hurt myself was for attention. but when i got back to my room...i hurt myself and it wasnt for attention. it was because i physically and emotionally hurt. on my way back to my room before that, i nearly ran into kyla. she called me a fat b-word. so when i got home, after i cut, i had myself throw up. there goes that one gained pound. im so sorry zach. the pain is too much to bare! im crying right now. you might see tear stains on the paper.

ugh, im sorry. i always rant when i write you. i feel bad. you have problems of your own and im your best friend. you help me through mine and im supposed to help you through yours! im a sad excuse of a best friend...

howre you zach with your parents gone and all? how is your sister doing?

dying without you, linney

dear lindsey,

i wish i was there to stop you. you dont deserve that. im sorry that you feel so alone that you feel the need to resort to hurting yourself.

these people should realize what kind of mistake they made sending you two states away with a restraining order on me. i guess both our lives are pretty unfair in that case.

its okay that you rant to me. i'd prefer you do that instead of hurting yourself again. youre not a sad excuse of a best friend, i am blessed to have you as my best friend. i cannot wait to be reunited with you again. soon.

im doing okay. i miss you and sara a lot and my parents too. i feel like im losing everybody that matters to me, besides duke.

my parents always seem to be fresh in my mind and i quite honestly hate that. i just want to forget about them because thinking about them gets me to emotional and guitly.

heck, they even put the ill-sara in my hands and i failed them. im just a failure. sara isnt getting better. shes back in the hospital again, she went in the day before i got your first letter. that letter made me feel so much better. she passed out when i visited her yesterday. the doctors said there was too many drugs in her body and they nearly lost her again.

my life will be over if i lose sara and you so please dont love me lindsey. i love you.

-zach