This is for you

Bitter Sweet

Been in a few relationship that ended up being shipwreck. Feelings got rejected while heart was broken. Felt like life was hopeless. Tears was there when ever this happened and heart started getting tired.

Had no clue what else to do. Lost in my thoughts of what I should and shouldn't of  done to make the relationship live long. Wishing I could of change the things that happened. Deep down I knew I couldn't. One can write history but can't change it.

Doing me while trying to lose memory of the past. Hard to do because there was still feelings of the things I thought that would of last.

Busy doing my work, busy up and down. The hospital was crowded seeing it was orientation for some of you new ones. Saw you walking outside, think you were on your break. It was the second time seeing your face. The first time was when you asked where was front office. Your dressed code was simple so was your hair.

Days had past till I saw you again. We was doing the same shift today. This was your first week working here. I was so shy to actually have a conversion with you. I just said hi,  asked you your name and left as soon as I could.

It had two other girls that was employed the same time as you, but you caught my interest and still do. Your supervisor got a relationship with me, so I question her about you. She told me all that she knew but i kept asking her to get more information on that girl.

Watching your movements from a far.  Admiring your beautiful ways. Your smile so elegant and lips that drives me crazy, that I wish I could just get a kiss from ,one day. Your so pretty with your smooth brown skin. You really know how to do up your hair. Small fit body that fits your simple wear. O my gosh are you an angel I kept saying to myself.

This is not what truly caught and amazed me. Its when I got the courage to speak and have a good conversion that's when I learnt so much amazing things. Like the music you listen too fits my mix. You're connected to God and keep your faith. Honest in every simple way. Most kind hearted and treat people with so much grace.

Let me not forget well spoken with an intelligent brain. Hype with not a dull moment. You listen to me while I was going through my heartbreak. Gave me great advice and your younger I must say. The pointers you gave was so shocking . I was like wow your very mature for your age. Heaven sent I said in my head, heaven sent.

Its hard for me to stare at your face and see the color of your eyes. You take my breath away, make me shy, and make me smile inside. You taught me so much in these months. I thank God for sending this one.

You somehow took away the pain without doing anything but just by being the person you are within. My heart feel mended and healed. You showed me all isn't lost. Love can still be found. It might take a while or you just needed to fall but love will always come along.

I wish I could tell you how I fell. How happy I am when your in my presence. How much you make my heart skip a beat. The comfortable feeling you generate to me. Wish I could but can't. Your feelings isn't mutual for me but for someone else.

I will not give up hope and  cross the line. If its meant to be then that time will come when its ready. I will always be there for you also keep you close. But some day I would tell you these words , i love you ,and you would know I meant every word.

But for now I will keep it in and sail the ship just the way it is. Catch the sunset at the right time. Just enjoy every moment with you, my unforgettable crush.