Feelings || John Laurens + Alexander Hamilton.

14- so how about that first date?

IM SO SORRY YOU GUYS PROBABLY THINK IM DEAD. I HAVENT PUBLISHED IN SO LONG. Ive literally been working on this since march. Its May...

John's POV

"ALEXANDER HAMILTON!" I jumped on his bed. It was Saturday morning. "Johhhhn." He dragged out my name. "To early to be moaning my name silly, thats for later." I smiled. "Princess, why up so early?" He dragged me under the covers sleepily. "Becauseee. I have a proposal." He shot up. "Propose??!" I chuckled. "No love. Not yet. A proposal." He looked sad. "Oh." I kissed his forehead. "We'll get there someday." He took my hands in response. "Now, bout the proposal." He was focused on me. "We uh. Never went out on a real first date. So, Alex-" He hugged me. "Yes. I will go on a date with you Princess." He smiled. I smiled and hugged him in return. I was so nervous for nothing. "So, what'd you have in mind babygirl." He asked me, stroking my hair. "Uh- well I guess we could- nah, i-its stupid." I mumbled. "Anything that comes out of your mouth is far from stupid, what is it." He insisted. "I-I was thinking w-we could go on a dinner date t-to like a restaurant you like- then um, walk around the city afterward because I-I like to do that sometimes and I thought you'd like it too." I stuttered. He held me close. I was lying on top of him, and he was stroking may hair. "I love that idea." He kissed my forehead. "Im glad. 6 o'clock." I informed. He smiled.

"So what do we do until then?" I asked. "We could get some coffee- fuck! Baby I'm sorry." He got up. "What?" I asked. "I got a job interview, I can't believe I forgot!" He grabbed his laptop and ran to the table. "Oh shit, John, I'm so late!" He scrambled around, throwing the nicest clothes he found on. "Alex." I asked. "Yes honey?" He paused. "Be at Jitters at 6." He kissed me. "Wouldnt miss it baby." I sighed. "Love you." He closed the door. I don't like this Alex lately. He'll show me love and then all sudden its something else.

(A/n: I'm listening to Satisfied rn, and aHHH)

"John, whats wrong?" Angelica was at the dorm door almost the second I called. I took a deep breath. "Angie, I'm.. I'm worried about Alex and I's relationship. He's starting to get distracted, focused on other things latley. Taking care of everything, I mean, I get it, he's dominant, he wants me to feel safe, and be his Princess, and I am, but it's like- what do I do, just stand there, amd take his unorganized, mess?" She looked like she was thinking for a second before looking back up at me. "No John. Tell him exactly that. Tell him how you feel. Did you ask him out on the date yet?" She asked. "Yes." "Tell him on the date, when you guys are walking through the city, stop at Central Park, or something.. Talk to him. Communication is key darling." I smiled. "Perfect."

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"How did I get so lucky?" He asked. We were hand in hand, walking down the streets of New York City. "I don't know." I chuckled. "Baby.. I have something to ask you about." I looked down. "Anything, Princess." He assured me. "What's with you latley?"

His face dropped, then looked kind of offended. "E-excuse me?" "I don't mean it in a rude way I promise, but what's been going on latley? You're acting distant, and rushy, like you don't have any thime for me anymore, you always have something else to do. Its only been 3 months, I don't want this to be the end of us Alex. So please, just tell me what's wrong?" I pleaded. He sighed. "John. I'm sorry. Things have been a bit weird lately, ive been having flashbacks of Nevis, and my mother, and my home. I've been trying to distract myself with things. And it was wrong of me."

"Why didn't you tell me. Thats what I'm here for, to talk about things. To comfort you. Just because you're the dominant one doesn't mean you get to be all macho tough all the time. It's okay to be weak. And it's okay to talk to me about it. How are we supposed to be together if we can't communicate?" I said. He nodded. "Okay princess, I promise I'll talk to you from now on."

"I hope so." I smiled. He took my hand, kissing my forehead.

"I love you." He said. "I love you more." I nuzzled against him as we walked.

A/n: I am so sorry. I literally have writers block, for this book only?? Idk why tho. I have pleanty of ideas for my oneshots book, and my upcoming Voltron books, and my book books... why this one I cant think of anything?? Beats me.

Until next time my mind decides to think. Enjoy, drink water, stay safe 😜✌️