Fix You

Chapter 1

January 9, 2016

[Mandi]

It's been 2 months since she died. I can't stop thinking about that night. I can't help but feel this guilt. I can't help but wish that he was dead too, even if that's wrong. I'm glad he's in prison and out of my life though. I wish my mom kept in touch. I am currently in the kitchen of my new apartment that I share with my best friend Jessie and my other sister Maci who just turned 20 which is one year younger than me. I am making brownies when I hear them both scream. I run into the living room, "What's wrong?" I ask in a concerned tone. "One Direction is taking a break." Jessie says as she shows me her phone. I see the four boys standing and a news heading.I roll my eyes and say, "Really you made me leave my brownies for this?" I never really followed them like Jessie and Maci, they are crazy about them. Jessie loves Niall and Maci likes, I think his name is Liam or something like that. I couldn't tell you which one was which. "Well it's a big deal, to us." Jessie says. "Yea to you." I say in an annoyed tone. "You would care if you actually listened to their music like we've been telling you to for the last five fucking years." Jessie says getting defensive. "Yea well I didn't so.." I say and Maci says, "Will you at least listen to one of their songs? If you hate it you don't have to listen to them ever again, but if you do then you will listen to more of their music." "Fine. You get one song, to try and persuade me as to how great they are." They both squeal excitedly, wow they really care about this too much. "Okay, this song is called You and I." Maci says and they play the song. It's actually pretty good. I love the tune of it and the guys who sang so far are good. I think the chorus is coming.

You and I

We don't wanna be like them

We can make it til the end

No, nothing can come between

You and I

Not even the gods above

Can separate the two of us

No, nothing can come between

You and I

Oh, you and I

Wow those are really good lyrics and whoever sang the chorus is really good. I love the voice. "Who sang the chorus?" I ask and Jessie answers, "That was Harry." I nod like I actually know which one he is. The song ends and Maci asks, "So what do you think?" "Well, I think I'll have to listen to more of their music." I answer and they both get really happy. I go back into the kitchen and finish making the brownies. I shower while they are in the oven and then watch tv with Jessie and Maci. We go to bed around ten.

I wake up and get myself ready for work. I work at a small cafe called Cecilia's, it pays pretty good and it's perfect for me being in college. I leave around 8 and get there a little before 8:30. "Good morning, Brenda." I say as I walk through the door. "Hi Mandi. Could you help me hang these up?" She asks handing me a couple flyers. "Yea sure. What are they for?" I ask and she replies, "An open mic night that we are going to start doing every Thursday." "Oh cool." I say as I start to hang them up.

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I get home and Jessie and Maci are just getting home as well. "Hey girls, how was your day?" I ask and Jessie says, "Good, how was yours?" "Good." I say and Maci chimes in, "Anything new?" "Well apparently we are starting to do an open mic night every Thursday." I answer and she says, "Oh my gosh, you should do it." "Oh I don't know. I haven't sang since... you know." I say hating to even bring it up. "Mandi, you know she wouldn't want you to throw away this amazing gift that you have." Jessie says and tears start to prick my eyes, "It doesn't matter what she would have wanted she's dead." I snap. "Mandi, don't say that. It does matter, she loved you so much and she loved it when you sang. If you started singing again, you would be keeping a piece of her alive. Trust me I miss her too, she was our little sister." Maci says and I say, "Can we not talk about this anymore? I'll think about it." I just want this conversation to be over. "Yea of course." They say in unison. I go up to my room and lay in bed watching The Last Song. That was her favorite movie. I still have nightmares about that night. I just wish that I would have been more stubborn and made her give up the front seat. If I did then she would still be alive. I start crying and end up crying myself to sleep once again.

****

I get up and go to work, per usual. Classes start back up on Monday. We just opened and people are starting to come. I walk out of the kitchen and turn a corner when I bump into a solid chest. "Oh sorry love." He says and I say, "No it's fine." I look up at him and I feel like I've seen him somewhere. "I'm Harry," He says and the name sounds familiar but I can't remember where from. "Nice to meet you I'm Mandi."