changing • ed (DISCONTINUED)

s e v e n t e e n?

paige's pov:

the look on ethan's face when i told him not to continue the list was heartbreaking. it truly was. in a way i felt selfish. i know i'm allowed to have my own feelings, but ethan was so dedicated to getting me back.

i couldn't bare to even go to school, so for the past week, i've just stayed home. bellamy and evan went for half days, but even they were shaken up about the whole divorce.

my mom had moved out. in a few weeks time would be when my brothers and i would have to start switching houses.

just thinking about it stressed me out. i didn't need that.

"hey paige," bellamy said sitting down on the couch beside me. "are you okay? you haven't been acting like yourself lately. i know it's not just the divorce."

bellamy was so good at reading people. it's like he knew exactly what i was thinking.

"bell, i'm fine. just stressed out about everything." i exclaim.
"are you and ethan okay?" he asks.
"i really don't know." i reply. "he made me so happy, but i just don't think i can take on a relationship right now."
"the thing is. when it comes to relationships, it shouldn't feel like a chore or obligation. it's more like someone you can fall back on. someone who is always with you, yet you're sometimes apart."

i take a minute to think about what bellamy said. he was right. i was thinking of it as an obligation. it was nowhere near a chore. i truly cared about ethan.

"have you been reading some of those relationship posts on instagram?" i say laughing.
"i have my ways." bellamy replies winking.

•••

it had been a few more days and i decided to go back to school.

dreading it, i walked in the front doors. it was exactly how i left if. crazy loud. insanely busy. i hated it.

i walked over to my locker and put my binders inside. suddenly someone taps my shoulder.

"hey paige!!" grayson says smiling.
"hi gray," i reply.
"where have you been?" he asks.
"home," i say.
"oh, well i missed ya! ethan's been a total downer!" grayson exclaims. "we should go for lunch or something, to catch up!"
"yeah, i'm down." i reply.
"meet me at my locker at lunch. we can go for burgers!"

grayson walks away and i turn back around. all of a sudden, it goes completely quite.

i look around the hallways, wondering why it had gone completely silent, and then i see him. ethan.

he looked like a complete mess. he had bags under his eyes. his hair was a mess. what happened?

his eyes shoot up and look at me. i walk over to him and pull him into the girls washroom.

everyone was looking at me. probably wondering why i has a boy in the girls washroom.

"out." i say and all the girls leave. "e, what the hell happened?"

he turns and won't look at me. i place my hand on his cheek and he winces.

"e, please talk to me." i say.

he just ignores me.

i tuck a piece of hair behind his ear and look at him in the eyes.

"i'm right here. what's wrong?" i say grabbing his hand.

he looks at me and sighs. "i don't know who i am."

"eth, what are you talking about?" i ask.
"without you i'm nobody." he replies.

i'm taken back at his words.

"ethan-."
"no paige. i can't do the whole 'everything's going to be okay' bullshit, because actually nothing is okay. i am a mess. without you i can't function. you're my rock. my everything. i can't be happy-,"

i press my lips against ethan's to cut him off. our lips molded together, fitting like puzzle pieces. his hands moved down to my waist and mine tussled in his hair.

"what was that for?" he asks.
"i missed you so much." i reply.

•••

cliffhanger oooooof!
okay, wow. hey guys! long time no talk. it has legit been a year, but it's fine 😂

anyways, i hope you liked this chapter. i see y'all comment on my stories telling me to post. i've been so busy with school and i recently got a dog, sooooooooooooooo it's crazy.

i'm not saying i'm back and posting on a regular schedule, but if i have time, i'll try to post:)

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