hanahaki

everything

you looked at me with genuine concern,
as if we knew each other
and i couldn't deny the fact
that my heart was beating so rapidly,
my ears turned red and i wanted to
smile so wide because finally,
you saw me.

but that only happened,
because i coughed up petals, right?
you had no idea
that my heart also clenched
because you wouldn't notice me
unless i did something that
makes people worry about me.

but don't worry about it,
because my disease
isn't so fatal,
unless you return my love,
or i get surgery.

but, getting surgery would
either affect my feelings
and i wouldn't be able to
have them anymore.

i wouldn't want to lose it,
even though
it's another option
for me
to survive my pain
of coughing up petals
at the thought of you giving me
unrequited love.

but someday, someday,
i'll be happy,
i'll be happy because i'm with you,
and i don't want to be cheesy,
but i really
really
like you,
and i want
you
to
be
mine.