A New Girl, In a New Way|| OITNB

•Chapter Nine• Love Is Weakness

River POV

"I have some news" my blonde headed sister says. Either good or bad but my hands start to sweat and I can feel my heart wanting to jump out of my chest.

"August got hit by a four wheeler yesterday" she tells me as tears fill her sweet soft eyes. "And I don't think he will make it" she says as she croaks and chokes in her words.
I can feel my whole world closing in and my lungs not wanting to inhale anymore. I can feel myself turning, feeling woozy as my bestfriend, practically my brother will never see me when I walk out of these bloody wired fences. I have to get out of here. I stand up and push in my chair and can sense Emma grasping for touch that I can not give. I hug her goodbye and sprint as fast a I can to my bunk, to comfort. And where I think my comfort item would be, Nicole Nichols.
I see the ginger's unkept hair peak out from the short statutes walls of our bunk. I walk in unnoticed and lay down on my bed. I'm sobbing for comfort but yet again trying not to be heard my others around me.
"Hey baby are you alright" I hear a raspy Brooklyn accent fill my ears as the squeak of the metal frame the sense of her presence can almost comfort me. "Is everything alright" she says softly as she brushes the hair that ended up in my face.

I can not respond the only thing I can do is sob. "I'll be right back" as she hurried out of our bunk a few minutes that feels like a lifetime passes and I'm still in the same spot but now I can feel the blood rushing head and my nose dripping. I hear footsteps and see Red, Chapman, Alex, Lorna and my precious girlfriend stand at the entrance of our bunk. Red doesn't hesitate she rushes to my side trying to talk to me but I cannot respond, I'm completely out of it. The only thing I can hear is the sound of my heart beat.

"RIVER, HONEY LOOK AT ME" I hear a thick Russian accent and my head being turned towards a bright red head.

"You need to talk us what's wrong" Red says as she gives me the pleading eyes I've heard about from Nicky and that she doesn't give them very often

I look at the picture of August, Emma and I and begin to tell what emma told me not to long ago
"My bestfriend August was hit in a four wheeler accident and the doctors don't know if he will make it". I say as red is holding me close.

I am then surrounded by hugs from all of my friends. They assure me that everything will be okay. But I know that won't happen.

Lunch rolls around and I'm feeling a little better than what I had felt like this morning. Me and Nicky walk to the canteen together taking about lots of random shit. We reach the canteen and get in line with them serving mac and cheese with some bread.
We reach our table and begin to talk endlessly.

Lunch ends and we all head back to our bunks I reach mine and begin to read, I want to escape this poor, poor reality that I'm living in. With this prison being the darkest part of my world. But a light shines through with Nicky, my prison family, Emma and August cheering me on. But the once again I am swallowed by darkness as my whole past surrounds me with all the abuse, transferring home to home not being wanted takes over my mind, body and everything else. I slam down my book and run to the chapel. As the clunks of my boots beat the tile floor I hear another pair follow me. The sound of boots clanking along the floors continue all the way to the double doors of the chapel somewhere where I haven't been in years. I turn around to see my ginger headed girlfriend wrap her arms around me as we both collapse into the tile flooring. As I'm sobbing into her chest dampening her prison uniform I look up and flick off the ceiling. "Fuck you God" Because what he has fought is that love maybe powerful but love is weakness.

Hey Y'all so the musical has been over for a couple weeks now and I'm now on spring break. Testing season is coming soon so I will try to update a soon as possible.

~ Augi 💛