Well, its 6:35 in the morning and today I've gotten up early, unlike the other days that i used to wake up on my sisters screaming and playing out loud at 11 a.m.
I had my coffee and a sandwich, and then i charged my laptop and thought about watching a random movie on Netflix but then i thought that may be before that i can check Wattpad. and i entered my list of writing-stories and i remember that the first time i have published was on 2016 , and when i looked deep on what i had wrote back then, I have seen this desperate girl in me , who was badly in need of love, in need of someone to love her, in need of rest, in need of understanding her thoughts.
I was so lost and broken no body understood the deep pain that i was in, i had this concept that i'll be alone forever yet everyone was around me. I was afraid of loneliness , things were complicated , i wasn't capable of understanding what i wanted , i didn't know what to do!
There were days that i cried out loud wishing things would get better, everyone said that what i'm going through was just teenage hormones or one of my break ups but it wasn't that. But later today i thought about it when i read what i wrote and realized that it was one of the ups and downs of my life that i went through.
So I've figured out that the more i grow up the more i can control that deep pain i have inside of me, the more i grow up the more i can control my weaknesses, my fears and my thoughts. I found some distractions which keeps my feelings down sometime but after all I've still got that pain inside of me that i have no idea of its source.
Its just like a pipe dream.
YOU ARE READING
Broken
רומנטיקהi write whatever that comes into my mind , i describe my feelings , I describe the deepest feelings a human can feel .
