What Is Love?

The Truth

As me and Nick drive slowly along the packed road, he says "I can't believe someone would say something like that." I sigh and say "Just forget about it, it doesn't matter what he thinks." Nick turns to me, his eyes have a strange furious fire in them that I have never seen before...it kind of scared me. "I have never seen someone cruel enough to say that to someone's face Nate! That was horrible!" I am suddenly angry. Not angry at Mr. Wilson, not angry at Nick, I was just angry at everything. We stop at a light and I turn to him and snap "Yeah, well this is New York, Nick! This is what life is like here! It is horrible it is cruel but people are like that. People of all shapes, sizes, races, religions, personalities, genders, and sexualities!" His eyes widen at my anger, and the furious fire in his eyes turns into a look of regret, guilt, and hurt. I suddenly feel horrible for snapping at him and glance down. "I'm sorry Nick. I didn't mean to snap at you like that." Nick nods a little. "I love you and that is all I care about. I don't give two shits about what Mr. Wilson thinks or even what Mr. Quinn thinks! I love you." Nick looks up at me lovingly and nods again. I look back at the road, smiling smugly. "Would it be really cliché if I pulled over right now and kissed you?" Nick grins "Probably. But I don't give two shits." I pull over onto the curb, locking the doors, and turning the headlights up. I unbuckle and climb over the console. He unbuckled also. Straddling his legs, I press my lips to his. Nick laughs a little and pulls my legs out from under around his waist and I am sitting on his lap. As he kisses me, he runs his hands up and down my thighs slowly. I bite down on his lip and he gasps, I take that opportunity to slip my tongue into his mouth. As our tongues battle for dominance, I slip off my blazer and pry his off too. I wrap my legs tightly around his waist and he sighs against my mouth.

Suddenly there is a knock on my window. I pull away and look through the window. It is a man and a woman in a security, in police uniforms. I groan and roll my eyes. He laughs but lets go of me. I push myself towards the door and roll down my window. "Hi, can I help you?" I ask politely. The man answers "Yes, you are parked in a no parking zone, sir. I would greatly appreciate it if you would leave. Workers said they tried to get your attention but couldn't get it." He gives me and Nick a pointed glare. "I am dreadfully sorry, sir. We were a little distracted. I didn't realise this was a no parking zone." The woman stands behind him...she must be new to the force. "This is not a good place for young people to be around at night, what were you doing?" The woman asks. The man gives her a 'did you really just ask that question'

looks. I laugh a little and Nick does too. The woman must realise what she asked and the answer to her question because he eyes went wide and her face flushed. "Have a good night gentleman." He says and walks away. I reverse and fly back across the less packed road.

After I drop Nick back off at his house, I went straight home. My parents are in the kitchen with Kara and Ashton laughing. I enter and go straight for the refrigerator. "Wow, someone looks tired." My mom says. I just groan and continue to look through the fridge. "Grumpy and tired. Wow double hit!" My dad exclaims. "I'm not grumpy I'm just exhausted! I had a long day. I had to show some people around school, but I got to skip class and Cooper, Nick, and I are off every detention list for the rest of this week! Some man and his kids caught me kissing Nick and started yelling at us and got dust and dirt all over my car." My mom and dad look suddenly worried "Who yelled at you? What did he say?" Mom asks. "Some guy who is interested in enrolling his two sons. His name is Mr. Wilson, and his sons are Xavier and Oliver Wilson. It was just the usual criticism. Called us faggots and all." I look down at the refrigerator's contents trying to avoid their worried faces. "Honey, I'm sorry! Do you want me to talk to Principle Worthy about it?" I shake my head quickly, my blonde bangs falling in my face again. Brushing them out of my face I look up and say "No, no please don't. I can deal with it. I always have. It's not me I'm worried about its Nick. He isn't used to this level of criticism." A phone rings and my father goes to get it, leaving me, Kara, and Ashton in the kitchen. I stand by the bar counter. "Why are you so worried?" Mom asks. I feel tears threatening to come. "I-I don't know exactly. He is so used to people liking and agreeing and loving him that..." I trail off and take a shaky breath. "I snapped at him earlier because he was so infuriated by Mr. Wilson and Xavier's words and I don't know he...I just don't want to loose him because of the criticism." I look down at the brown, black, clear, and white crystals in the marble, a few tears spilling over. "Your not going to loose him honey. Nick loves you with all his heart. I know he does. Any dot can see it in the way he looks at you, the way he says your name, the way that he looks for you when your not in the same room as him, everything he does that involved you is filled with love and desire that any person can see." I smile a little. Then a thought, a question zips into my head painfully. "Did Blaine love me that much?" I ask, without thinking. Truthfully I don't wan to know the answer. My mom nods slowly "Blaine's love towards you was expressed in a different way but yes he did love you." I tilt my head "What do you mean?" Mom thinks for a minute, she seems to be arguing with herself. "Nick's love cannot be compared to Blaine's. Blaine and Nick aren't similar. Blaine was wild, Nick is caring and thoughtful. Blaine liked to get you in trouble through kissing during class, Nick on the other hand you get him in trouble. Do you see what I mean?" I was frustrated "I want a direct answer mom! How did he express his love for me? I understand he is different than Nick and I love Nick for who he is just tell me." She sighs and knows she has lost the little battle she put up but the stubborn thing she is she replies "The past is the past, Nate." I groan in frustration. "Mom! Answer my question! I know Blaine is gone! I understand I will never see him again and that I will never get him back! I understand that! Just please give me peace of mind and tell me!" I raise my voice slightly as I talk. Mom glances at Kara and Ashton but says "He was just different Nate! He was odd, he was crazy, he loved you with all his heart! Did you ever see him dance with another boy at a party or a club? Did you ever see him glance at another boy? No you didn't! He was one hundred percent committed to you, Nathaniel! He kissed you with passion. He looked at only you with a certain love that you don't see in teenage boys usually. It was genuine love Nat! Genuine Love! I found you two curled up on the same couch that you and Nick were sleeping on the other night and he looked so at peace. He didn't have a wild look to him like he normally did. Genuine Love! Nat why don't you understand. I didn't want to tell you because it would just through you back and cause resentment towards Nick."she used my old nick-name 'Nat'. My youngest cousin couldn't say Nate so he called me Nat and most of my family still does. I look up at her and say "I love Nick too mom. You know this. I wanted to know this to put my mind at rest. To know that he would still love me if he were here today." She nods and that's when I notice tears glistening in her eyes and on her cheeks. Kara and Ashton look at me, caution clear on their faces. "Blaine was my ex boyfriend. He was hit and killed by a drunk driver a few months ago." I explain in a whisper. With that I run up the stairs and cried myself to sleep.