Blog by Me ---> Ryan

part dos.

I said I would continue writing the next part of my history when I got 5 votes, but I haven't really got any; I'll just tell of something else.

      Today was the end of my relationship. We dated for almost 3 months and I was genuinely non sad (basically "happy" although I have a theory as to "happy" does not exist: it is just the absence of sorrow), and content. However, as time passed I realized that I was no longer content. I told myself to stay because I didn't want to ruin her. But a wise person once told me (in my own words) "you cannot truly become content with yourself unless you DO things for yourself."

     I took this as my one act of selfishness and decided to end the relationship. I wasn't feeling too awful about it, (but it's a break up and I just ruined a girls life; there was definitely regret in there) until I received hateful anonymous messages on ask.fm. They said things like "you f***ed her life up!", "you're a complete jerk!" ), and most hateful of all "just go be with your freak friends".

      okay #1- she told me those were the best few months of her life. All of a sudden I'm the enemy because I try to do things for myself. This is just one example of mankind's tendency to over exaggerate, be selfish, and throw fits if things don't go their way. or maybe it's just our generation...

      #2- if I'm a jerk I would not have been there with her. like someone I know once said "hit it and quit it". In my eyes that's disrespectful and I don't see how any person could treat human beings as their personal toys. If I was a jerk I would not have given effort or time into our failing relationship l, in which we didn't see each other.

     finally #3- if you ever say anything like that to me, I'll probably be pretty upset. but if you say something like that about my friends you might as well go dig yourself a grave because I don't put up with that crap at all. my friends are my life and I value them very dearly. they may not be perfect or there may not be a lot of them but they're there and they're great people. so basically if anyone ever insults my friends I will personally come find you.

     maybe it's just me but people really honestly do suck. take my birth parents for example. and if you want to know more about my history please don't forget to vote.  Once i get the 5 votes I'll upload the next history section.

     thanks for listening to my rant

             -ryan