Abnormal Teenage Summer

Chapter Three: Moni

We finally let go of one another and look straight into the pupil of our eyes. She begins to talk softly by saying "Why don't I continue packing for you while you go say goodbye to Luan? Only stay there for an hour." Luan is one of our oldest neighbors on the street. She is also a widow and has no close family but us. Her family lives all over the world and she has no one to accompany her on the holidays but my mom and I. She's like my grandma and my best friend. "Okay," I respond "I'll be back before 5:30. I love you." She replies "I love you too."

With that, I start to head out of my bedroom, through the narrow dark hallway and out the door. I walk about six houses down the street until I meet up with a yellow house with an old bright white door. I go up the damaged wood steps to reach her porch and knock once the door. She yells "One second!" in a grouchy voice. Luan opens the door quickly and in glee says "Moni! Deary, what a surprise. Come on in!" While looking at her porcelain dolls I walk to her floral love seat and sit down. Slowly but surely she walks and sits down to the matching couch across from me. "What brings you here on a Thursday after school?" she questions. My eyes look over towards her and then they quickly move to look at the white carpet. "Is something wrong?" she asks with curiosity. To avoid to not make her upset, I respond "Yes, Luan. There is something I have to tell you."

"Well, cough it up! I can't just sit here all day."

"Luan, you know I love you right?"

"Of course I do."

"So no matter what, you'll still love me?"

"Yes child, spit it out!"

"I'm leaving to New York tomorrow..."

She looks at me in shock and gasps.

"Why are you leaving?"

"I'm not happy at school."

She knows I'm depressed a lot at school. She knows I don't have any friends. She knows I get picked on at school. So this leads me wondering why she asks. I told her about all the depression and everything before my mom even knew.

Flashback

"Luan I need to tell you something that you can't tell anyone. Not even my mom."

"What is it Moni? It sounds very important."

"I want to move away. So far away that it would take me forever to come back."

"And where would that be at?"

"New York."

"May I ask why you want to move?"

"I'm depressed here. I have no friends. Everyone picks at me at school. Memories from my dad haunt me here. Its just not a good place to be."

End of Flashback

So she should remember that unless she didn't care...

"Who am I suppose to spend the holidays with?"

I forgot all about that... She won't have anybody to spend the holidays with. Since her family is so distant from her and the only that every once in awhile can't afford to fly out to Oregon from Alaska. That means my Mom and I are going to abandon Luan forever. I've never felt so much pain before. I tell her,

"I'm sorry Luan."

"Get out of my house Moni. Get out of my fucking house."

"What Luan?"

"Only family is allowed in this house and family doesn't abandon family."

"But Luan I-"

"Moni leave my god damn house before I call the cops. LEAVE MONI!

I look at her finger pointing to the bright white front door. My heart has been shattered into billions of pieces. Sadly walking to the door I break. Water falls down my face, its pouring like a storm. My hands have a grasp on the brass doorknob and the hand moves left to open the door. I look back one last time to see Luan's symptoms. She's having the symptoms go into her hands. I shut the door. Walk down the three steps. Head towards my house until I stop. Imagining Luan one more time, having symptoms fall into her hands. That made me realize that I had broke her heart worse than she did mine.