The Various Emotions of Leah and Edward

Part 2: Hello Again

"Here you go sweetheart," Esme cooed as she handed me my warm bloody Mary minus the Mary. She'd put it in this cute purple mug. It actually took some of the ick factor away from drinking it. It was a good thing too because I had to drink a lot of blood. I refused to drink human blood, so Emmett and Jasper went out and they drain animals for me. I tried not to think about how many poor Bambi's were killed in an attempt to keep me healthy. I sat back comfortably as I sipped my drink and pretended it was coffee. It only took a moment for me to realize that Esme was staring at me. I looked up at her waiting for her to share what was on her mind.

"I'm sorry Leah. It must be weird with me staring at you this way." Esme sat down and picked up the parenting magazine I was reading. "I was just marveling at how well you are doing with the pregnancy. You've been pregnant for about a month now and you look … normal." I arched my eyebrow at her I looked like many things but normal wasn't one of them. I was just over a month pregnant and I looked like I was ready to burst. I wasn't a doctor but most pregnancies last about nine months. Carlisle informed me that Bella's pregnancy lasted about this long and that he was making preparations for the birth. He was shocked at how well my body was holding up too. He said that every time the growth of the baby crushed or broke bones I healed and it seemed my body was the stronger for it. He also noted that I was bigger than Bella was. He thought I may be carrying multiples but it was hard to predict since he couldn't perform an ultrasound.

"Thanks," I muttered dryly as I finished off my special red kool-aid. "All for you my love," I cooed as I smiled down at my belly and felt as the baby kicked. It was a gentle kick and just felt like a knock against my stomach. Esme looked at me with wary wide eyes.

"Are you okay?" She asked and I nodded as the baby did it again.

"Yeah it feels pretty cool. The baby has learned to be gentle with mommy," I cooed at my tummy. Esme scooted over to me and sat on the coffee table and timidly reached her hand out to touch my belly as if on cue the baby tapped once more. Esme gasped and seemed filled giddiness.

"That's amazing Leah!" She hugged me and I froze, Esme and I weren't close and we most definitely never hugged. "Thank you for letting me experience that!" Esme spoke with emotion coloring her words.

"Don't thank me thank the munchkin she's the one that moved," I said as I repositioned myself.

"I wish Edward could see how healthy you looked. I think that it would be enough to make him come home. I know that each day I see you and I see the glow about you, to me it confirms that you and the baby are going to be just fine." I offered Esme a smile but I really wished she hadn't brought up Edward. Every single day I longed for that man and I hurt because he left me to fend by myself. I get that he couldn't deal with the hurt but for him to just walk away and leave me for dead was wrong. I felt like if he loved me, he should love me regardless.

"I wish Edward was here too, but he isn't, and he made his choice." I struggled to get up. I was hungry for some real food now. I really wanted some beef jerky. Rosalie had gone out a collected me a stash it was my one pregnant craving. I waddled to the kitchen and opened the drawer and pulled out two.

"I think he will come back," Esme mused. I was a little annoyed that she followed me, but I partly expected her to. I simply nodded not wanting to say anything negative about the father of my baby. "He'll come back he'll see you and you two will pick up right where you left off."

"Not hardly," I blurted out and the look on Esme's face made me wish I hadn't. "I mean no disrespect Esme, but Edward left me pregnant with his baby. Granted he left me in a place where I would be taken care of, but he left just the same." Anger my hands started to shake. "Oh no," I gasped as quickly tried to calm my thoughts.