I CAN'T [ BROCK BOESER ]

- nine -

"Levi?" I hear the voice of the man who hurt me and I stop dead in the hallway. My whole body goes numb and my heart thumps hard in my chest I'm surprised that it hasn't busted its way out of my chest. What's he doing here? Why is he outside my dorm? Why the fuck is Hudson here after all this time apart? More importantly, why has he turned up just as I am finally getting over him?!

"Levi." Hudson repeats my name again. I can't bring myself to look at him, he's caused so much pain in my heart and when I am finally getting over him, he shows up in my life. Did he know that I am finally getting over him and he doesn't like that? I feel weak and sick like I am about to collapse at any second, I can't take this. I can't take the heartache he caused me, I can't take him showing up at my dorm after breaking up with me seven months ago without a solid answer to why. And I can't take that Brock is standing next to me, the guy who my heart is starting to crush on when I specifically said not to.

"Can I help you?" Brock's voice startles me. I finally come back to my senses and to what's happening around me, I have tears rolling down my cheeks, can I not cry over this idiot? I don't want my tears to be wasted on him anymore, he's done enough to me already.

"Uh, I want to speak to Levi." Hudson says, I can hear the hesitance in his voice as he speaks. It hurts that I know him this well, it hurts that I still know every little detail about him. I can picture his dimples when he smiled and the crinkle of his nose when he was struggling to understand something, I can picture the faint glint of mischief in his eyes and his right eyebrow which is slightly higher than his left eyebrow. No, this shouldn't be happening. He shouldn't be back after all this time apart, I don't want him here especially when I am finally getting over him and especially when my heart is longing for Brock.

"I don't think she wants to speak to you bud." Brock tells roughly. I feel him move beside me and I turn my teary eyes to him, I find Brock watching me and changes his hard expression into a soft one when our eyes connect.

"Who are you?" Hudson calls out to Brock. Brock turns slowly, his gaze lingers on mine for a second and then moves onto Hudson.

"Who are you?" Brock counters with the same question. I hear Hudson chuckle sarcastically, he only does that when he's angry or annoyed. What right does he have to be annoyed? If I remember correctly, he was the one who broke up with me and walked off without telling me why he was breaking up with me. I have more right to be angry with him and anyways, we are no longer together so he shouldn't care if I am seeing someone else or not.

"Why does it matter?" Hudson taunts. Brock stance changes and I feel him become tense beside me, I see his hands ball into fists. Please don't let them fight, I don't think my heart could take it.

"It matters because whoever you are, you've made Levi pretty upset so I suggest you leave before you cause her to get even more upset." Brock tells through a clinched jaw. I let out a shaky breath and finally raise my head, my eyes instantly connect with Hudson's dark eyes and I feel my stomach clench under his gaze. Shit, why did it do that? I don't know, maybe because I was deeply in love with him. But am I still in love with him? I don't think so, I think the love that I had for him is slowly leaving me and I am glad of that.

"I'm sorry." Hudson says and I instantly shake my head. I don't care that I'm crying now, I'm way past caring now that he's here apologizing to me. Screw him, screw him for turning up out of the blue just as I am trying to get over him!

"Don't you apologize." I mutter as I try to stop the sob in my throat from escaping.

"What?" Hudson asks in a breathless voice.