I CAN'T [ BROCK BOESER ]

- thirteen -

"And to think we thought he was the one." Dayla sighs as she throws herself onto my bed. I hum in my response and keep my face buried in my pillow, not wanting to look at either of my friends. My head hurts from crying so much, my heart hurts even more because of what happened between Brock and me. I haven't stopped crying, three days on continuous crying and it's like I'm reliving Hudson's break up all over again, but this time it is with Brock instead.

I feel a hand gently rub against my shoulder and I look up to see Jessica pulling me into a side hug. She smiles sadly at me and I try to return it, but it fails, I can't seem to let a smile form on my lips after what happened.

"If I had of been there, I would have told Hudson to go fuck himself and leave you alone." Jessica tells, and I let out a deep sigh at her words.

"It wasn't Hudson's fault, more mine because I let him in to talk about what happened and I totally forgot about Brock coming, and then he turned up like a minute after Hudson left and Brock was just distant and cold towards me. It's my fault Brock is acting like this to me." I mutter as I pick at my pillowcase. Jessica takes her arm off me and moves beside Dayla, who's on the phone with Alicia.

"Did he see Hudson at all?" Alicia asks over the phone.

"He must have seen Hudson, why else would he act that way?" Jessica says in a dumb tone, Alicia sighs loudly over the phone at Jessica's response. I feel my tears start to build in my eyes once again. I have been so stupid, I did things without considering the repercussions of what my actions would cause.

It's been three days since Hudson was here and Brock's weird attitude towards me. I haven't heard a single word from Brock and I know now that our friendship is most definitely over. He hasn't talked to me in three days and I'm too scared to message him in case he ignores me. I know he played a game last night and didn't rack up any goals like he normally does, he didn't play like he normally does either. It was hard to watch him, and I ended up turning the game off five minutes into the first period. My heart stung watching him, I want to see him again but I feel like that may never happen now.

The girls have been at me from the moment I told them everything that happened, and their reactions were completely different to the other. Jessica is angry that Hudson turned up at our dorm again and because of Brock's actions towards me, but she's not happy at me for letting Hudson into our dorm when I know what my feelings are for Brock. Alicia is taking Brock's side and feels it's completely my fault for what has happened between Brock and I, like I don't already know that it is my fault for how things have turned out. And Dayla, she's taken my side and understands why I let Hudson speak to me. I just wish that Brock wouldn't have been so distant towards me or left early so I could find out what was wrong with him, he really was different towards me and I didn't like how he was acting. I missed the Brock I know, I miss the Brock I'm falling in love with.

"I want to knock some sense into Brock." Dayla mumbles and Jessica tuts with a roll of her eyes.

"Why? He didn't do anything wrong, he had every right to act the way he did." Alicia asks angrily over the phone. I let out a shaky breath and lower my head to my pillow again, I feel my tears beginning to well in my eyes.

"He didn't need to leave Levi like he did, that was a shitty and horrible move. He could have waited until she came back before leaving, but no he ran away and told some waiter to tell her, plus he hasn't talked to Levi in three days!" Dayla protests loudly. I mentally thank Dayla for understanding why I'm so upset, but then Jessica pushes her way into the conversation.