I CAN'T [ BROCK BOESER ]

- twelve -

"When will you be back home?" Hudson asks as we walk towards the door to my dorm. It has been over forty minutes since I let Hudson into my dorm and it's been forty minutes of us talking through our break up and getting updated on one another lives again. Is it wrong that I am glad that Hudson and I have talked after everything that went wrong with us? I know I'll never learn to love him again like I did before, I don't think my heart could take a second round of loving him again, but that won't stop me from being friends with him. I finally understand everything and why he did what he did, now I know it'll help me get over him completely. Now I can focus on giving Brock my full attention, even though my heart is still saying stop it because he'll hurt me but Brock doesn't seem like the type to walk away from everything.

"I'm trying to get back for Christmas, but I am not a hundred percent sure if I will go home this year." I sigh as I lean against the door frame.

"You've got to come back, it'll be weird not having a Christmas together." Hudson chuckles and stands facing me in the hallway.

"I know, but we've got to see what happens." I shrug and push myself up off the door frame, Hudson and I stand facing each other with smiles on our lips.

"Well, I'm glad we had this talk." Hudson says shoving one of his hands into his pocket.

"I am too, it's cleared up a lot of questions I had." I nod to Hudson.

"Good, I'll see you soon. Have fun with Brock, from what I see you really like him and just love him like you did with me." Hudson tells seriously and rests his hands on my shoulders.

"I'm not that far with him yet, I'm just a little scared to love him." I admit with a shrug of my shoulder and Hudson sighs.

"That'll be my fault, I'm sorry." He apologizes as he squeezes my shoulder. I smile softly at him.

"Don't be, I couldn't help that I loved you so much." I shrug. Hudson nods his head and half smiles at me.

"I'll see you soon, OK? Be safe." He tells and brings me in for a hug. I sigh and wrap my arms around his waist, we hug for half a second and then I stand back. I smile up at Hudson, he smiles down at me and I know we both are going to get on just fine now.

"Bye." I say waving to him. Hudson waves back before walking down the hallway, when he gets into the elevator I walk back into my dorm and close the door. I lean against it and let out the deep breath I've been holding. Wow, did that just happen? Yes, I think it did. I feel better now, I feel my questions have been answered and I know now that I'm happy Hudson and I have had that talk.

I walk over my bed and collapse against it, I look up at the ceiling and then lower my head when the door knocks. Did Hudson forget something? I groan as I push myself off my bed and walk across the floor, I haul open the door expecting to find Hudson or Jessica on the other side but it's Brock. Oh, crap. I forgot about going out with him.

"Hey." I say in slight shock at him standing in front of me.

"Hey." Brock mutters shoving his hands into his pockets.

"I'm so sorry, did you text me?" I ask and open the door wider to let him in. Brock follows me into the room but stands in the middle of the room, I watch him carefully from my bed.