Hateful Love

Chap 3: Unlucky meetings

        The next morning I woke up with a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. I really didn't want to go to school today, but I had no choice. I got up and went in to the bathroom to take a quick shower. The hot water running down my back did nothing to sooth my nerves. While towel drying my hair I went into my bedroom to find something to wear. I ended up with a white ruffle blouse and pair of jean capris. I then combed through my hair before French braiding it to the side. I don't like wearing a lot of makeup because it makes me feel gaudy, so I put on a blue eyeshadow and some bottom eyeliner. Then I use some cover up for the bags under my eyes. I look at myself in the mirror and can't help but think I look pretty good.

        I go down to the kitchen and grab some cereal and milk, and pour me a bowl of my favorite cereal. It's no surprise that Mick's still sleeping. He never gets up before twelve. I wash my bowl and put the milk back in the fridge. I turn off the lights and grab my keys. There's no reason to delay the inevitable, so I go out and start my car. I make it to school early so I go to my locker to put all my stuff in since I didn't get the chance yesterday. I head to my first hour and read the board to find out our assignment today. After writing the assignment in my notebook I take a seat in the back corner. I get out my book and start reading the chapter. My plan worked when the bell rings no one evens notices me as they walk in.

        I sit through about an hour of lecturing as I take notes. No one seems to notice lil ol me sitting in the back and for that I'm glad. After yesterday I never want to be noticed again. When he's done lecturing he tells us to read the section and then he leaves. No one knows what he goes to do every day, but he's gone until the period is over. I finish reading the section, and the worksheet that's goes with it. The bell finally rings and everyone files out of the class room. The halls are crowded as I push my way to my locker. I make it there with no injuries, and I grab my biology book and notebook. Another hour of lecturing and the class is over.

        Now it's time for the class I've been dreading. He knows who I am now and it freaks me out. Why'd he have to remember? I'm at the door before I know it and I look through the door. OH Crap he's already there! Maybe I can sneak in with a group of people, so I wait on the other side of the hall until the first bell. To my disappointment there was only four people. I snuck my way to the middle of the group, and walked in. I walked to the back as quickly as possible to find a seat. I put my head on the desk and let out a sigh. He didn't see me maybe this might work. Unfortunately I spoke to soon because just then I hear a noise beside me, and I just know if I look up it's going to be him. So I made up my mind I just won't look up. That'll work right?

"Take your seat students." Mrs. Bosner exclaims as she walks into the room. As soon as everyone is seated she jumps in talking about equivalents and crap. I start to tune out until I hear a whisper beside me.

"Kathleen, Kathleen!" I try to ignore him as much as possible but it's quite a difficult thing to do when you have nowhere to go. Instead I get out my notebook and start taking notes. I still feel him staring at me, and it takes all my will power not to look at him. When the school bell rings I'm so relived that I forget to move quickly and he's standing by my desk.

"Kathleen I-"He starts, but I get up and walk toward the door before he can finish. "Kathleen wait!" He grabs my arm making me drop my stuff. "WHAT" I say and it comes out harsher than I meant it to. He suddenly lets go of my arm and fiddles with his fingers. "I just wanted to see if you were.... alright." He finishes slowly. "Thank you for your concern, but all I want to do is forget it ever happened and move on." I bend down to pick my stuff up, and to my dismay he bends down to help. "If I can do anything to help........" I give him my best death glare and he trials off. I get up and leave without saying anything.