you can be the boss daddy (mxb) ✔️

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a/n: WE HIT 3k!

Alex POV

"Chanel, I'm staying at your house for a bit, I need to handle this Neel situation." I say while we walk to the parking garage of the hospital. She turned to look at me but I didn't bother looking back, I wasn't in the mood. I just wanted to sleep.

We got to her car and we drove away. The drive to her home was quiet. I look outside the mirror and I see the city lights. I forgot where I lived for a sec. New York is where I lived. Concrete Jungle. I look past all of those high buildings, but they soon disappear when we reach the out skirts of New York, where Chanel lived. We ended up braking hard when Chanel almost ran a red light. Her arm was across my chest, holding me back so I wouldn't go through the windshield. She sighed.

"Sorry about that.." she says while taking her arm off of me. I look at her with a fake smile and I look back at the road. Chanel made a 'tsk' sound and she rolled her eyes after.

After 5 more minutes of silence we got to her manshion. I forgot how huge her place is. I opened her G Wagon door and got off. I walk to her front door and her butler opened the door for me. He was a tall white guy with a scruff along his jaw. He was handsome for an old dude. He was exactly how I like my men.. He looked down at me and gave me a little smirk. A lustful smirk. I walk away but soon got a pat on the back. I turn around and I saw the tall butler patting my lower back. I mean LOWER back. I looked down to my bottom and held his hand.

"Not today." I said while pushing his hand away. I flip my nonexistent hair and walk off. He grabbed my bags and began to follow me up to the guest bed room. I heard a little groan behind me, a groan that wanted more from me. Like he wanted me and my body. We got to the guest bedroom, the door was locked so I waited for the butler to open it. He had all of the keys to every single door in the house. The tall man grabbed his keys out of his pocket and he just stared at me. 

"Um, why are you staring at me? Can you just open the door?" I say pointing at the door. He quickly nods and puts the key in the keyhole. It took him 2 tries to get it in, he was shaking.

I walk inside the room and I quickly run to the bed. The bed was softer than the last one. And there's better blankets. I look over to the door and I saw the butler staring at me with a smirk on his face. He got inside my room and locked it, so I couldn't go out.

What the hell is going on?

He walks over to me and loosens his tie. I back up a bit but he soon grabs on to me. He moves his face closer to mine and our lips touch. I gasp a little and tried to stay still. I didn't kiss him back. I didn't want to. He travels his hands around my body, exploring every single part of my body. I groan onto his lips as he puts his hands over my parts. He begins to rub. I moan onto his lips before pushing him off of me.

"Dude, this isn't gonna work. Please leave–" he cuts me of with another kiss.

"You're exactly my type Alex, don't ruin this." He says onto my lips. I try to push his off but I couldn't. He was too strong for me to handle.

He grabs on to my waistband of my jeans and he pulls them down revealing my boy panties. He smirks at what he's seeing.

"Hmm.. boy panties huh?" He says while pulling them off slowly. I move around trying to get away from his grip.

"Stop! I will call the cops on you!" I say trying to threaten him. He wasn't startled at all. He then grabs my throat making it hard for me to talk and breathe. His face goes closer to mine and he starts to breathe heavily. The heavy hot breath hitting the skin of my neck making me shiver. He quickly turns me around so I'm on all fours. He goes in front of me and he sticks 3 of his fingers in my mouth.

"Suck." He says bluntly. I do what I'm told and I suck on his fingers. He pulled his fingers out and leaves my sight. Then a sharp pain hits me. I notice that the butler had stuck all his three wet finger in me. His fingers going in and out of my body hitting my prostate every time. He pulls his fingers out and he sticks himself in me. I scream in pain. I wanted his to stop, but I couldn't. I didn't want this.

"Please stop! I-I don't deserve t-this!" I say as he starts to thrust into me harder. He took his tie and he tied my hands together.

"There you go, now keep still for daddy." He says putting his hand over my mouth.

Every thrust he does makes me lose it. I wanted to scream so much. I don't deserve this.. or maybe I did? I didn't feel much inside, all I felt was numbness. All my body did was just stay there.. lifeless.. heartless..

All I felt was his body sliding in and out of me.

Sex is supposed to be for my pleasure too right? Sex is supposed to be enjoyable. Not terrible. Sex is for love. But he didn't love me. And neither did I.

He stopped thrusting in me and he pulled out. I noticed that he came inside me. He pulled his pants up and he was about to kiss me. I quickly back away from him and I started to cry. He sighs and he leaves the room.

How can I love someone, but I don't even love myself?

It doesn't make sense..