Pizza Delivery ; Daniel Seavey

~ 01 ~

Here's how my day is starting.

A six hour road trip.

It's currently 4:30 am. I'm grabbing all my bags and putting then into the car.

My mom and I are moving to Los Angeles today. After spending 17 years of my life living in San Francisco we're moving.

I'm not bothered by the move cause theres really no one here that I really care about.

Ever since 2nd grade I haven't cared about anyone. Ever since 2nd grade, no one has seen my emotions. Ever since 2nd grade, I've pushed everyone away.

So you could say I'm emotionless. I'm careless. I'm a depressed little girl. Think what you want I don't care.

You may be wondering.

"What caused poor Kristen to be like this?"

Even if you weren't wondering and you don't wanna know, I'm still going to tell you cause, once again, I don't care.

So in grade school I was friends with...the wrong people. The people I thought were my friends beat me up everyday. They said it was a game. A game everyone loved. This game caused the nicest, weakest, most innocent person to get beat up. They said it's like we were playing "prisoner". They said it's how the game was supposed to be played so I had to follow the rules. I did what they said not knowing they were beating me up just for fun.

One day they decided they wanted to start playing while we were on the jungle gym.

The "leader" of the "group" thought it would be funny to push me.

What he did caused me to fall through the jungle gym and hit my head on the concrete.

I was taken to the hospital where they did X-rays and found out my skull was fractured.

I had to stay in the hospital for 2 weeks and I had to stay home for 2 months.

The kids were expelled. My mom pressed charges. But none of that helped me mentally.

I told those kids everything from my crush to my darkest secret and they ended up telling everyone "by accident".

So now I have trust issues and no emotions.

But that's not important. So we're moving to LA. My mom got a job offer out there and it's a pretty good job so she had to accept it.

She says I could try to make friends but we both know that's not going to happen.

We back out of the driveway and start our drive to LA.

I put in my earbuds, play my music and look out the window.

♠️

We're about an hour away from LA and my phone is dead so we're just listening to the radio.

My mom keeps talking about how ill love LA and how she'll need to be working a lot.

She apologizes for accepting this job because she'll hardly be home. But I brush it off. She knows I like being alone but she's not comfortable with it. She thinks I should have friends. Like always I tell her I don't need friends. They're just a waste of time.

This is my senior year. I'm going to be graduating and going to college. Making friends will only get in the way of me getting into a good college. Even if I do make friends I'll be leaving them after this year. So like I said I don't need friends.

My mom keeps trying to convince me to giving people a chance. "I just want you to be happy"?Well I'm happy being alone. "Mom I don't need people to keep me happy".

She stops at that. We start driving into some small towns and areas meaning we're close to the main city.

"You'll have to get a job". This is what's been on my mind. My mom will be at work not being able to be there for my needs. Even though I don't really need her for money I'm still going to need to find a job that will give me money for me to live off of.

"I know I have some place in mind already" i say blankly.

"Good. For the summer you'll need day shifts and during school you'll need night shifts." Even though I know this she still reminds me every time the topic is brought up.

We entered the city seeing cars everywhere. We're in Hollywood since this is where our apartment is. We're moving into the W. It's a well known apartment building in Hollywood.

The first thing we do is head straight to our apartment to leave our bags.

There's our furniture that we had delivered a day earlier when everything was also put into each room.

I laid down in my mattress not caring that it's not covered and still wrapped. I got a blanket and laid down.

I grabbed my laptop and decided to watch that new series Everything Sucks on Netflix.

I was 5 minutes into the episode when my mom walks into my room. "Do you want to go get something to eat". I think about it. She seems happy. In a good mood. I'm comfortable watching Netflix. I was about to decline her offer when I thought of how happy it would make her. I accepted since she's been really happy all week and I don't want to ruin her mood.

I put on some black jeans and a black top and some vans and I do my hair.

I walk out and tell my mom I'm ready. "Kristen, really. Black again". She points at my outfit shaking her head. "Let's go" she chuckling.

When we walk out she says we're going down the street to dominos pizza.

I nod my head and we walk down the walk of fame. We get to dominos and order our pizza.

We sit down in the air conditioned building waiting for our pizza. Once it's finished my mom goes up and gets it. We start to eat and my mom starts trying to get me to make friends again.

On our way out I got an application to work there since it's not that far from our apartment.

I walk back to my mom and we walk to our apartment. I fill out the paper and bring it back not wanting to worry about having to do it later.

I get back to the apartment and arrange my room. Feeling tired I get into bed and lay down taking a short nap.

I just wanted to try... something different. So this is a new book obviously. I was inspired to write this because of the story How To Love. I don't know the author of it but it's How To Love and it's a Daniel Seavey story and i was absolutely in love with it so I recommend reading it.