It had been a few days since Luke and Abby had to pretend to the wolrd that they were together because they were currently away from each other, Luke was currently touring and Abby was still in her own country with her band, she currently stood outside surrounded by fans of her band, it was unusual for her to be without Luke so she felt a bit alone as she stood signing stuff and taking photos with fans even though it was crowded, she still felt alone
“You deserve to die, Luke doesn’t love you, he just feels sorry for you, you’re just a pathetic girl” One of the fans shouted to Abby, they didn’t think she heard over the noise of the crowd of fans but she did and she didn’t know what to do, she just stood there and pretended she didn’t hear it, maybe they were right – there was no maybe about it, they were right
“Don’t listen to them” Another fan smiled at Abby and she weakly smiled back, muttering a thanks but how could she not listen to them? They were right but she wished so badly that they were wrong
As soon as Abby got away from the cameras and the fans shouting that they shipped her and Luke and the other fans who were shouting hate at her, she locked herself into her bathroom, her head was a complete mess, she received hate daily and it wasn’t worth it for a relationship which didn’t exist and then she received messages saying her and Luke were perfect and to be honest, it mucked up her head, she had no idea what she wanted as she reached for the blade in the cupboard, if she was in her right mind she wouldn’t of done it but she was confused and hated herself for using Luke and so she harmed herself
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“I would die for a relationship like yours and Lukes” Lydia said as she tossed a sweet into her mouth, Abby and her band were having a sleepover round hers and they were currently discussing how cute her and Luke looked, that’s all everyone seemed to talk about with Abby and that annoyed her but she would never say anything
“Me too, You two are adorable” April added and Abby sighed, she wouldn’t die for a relationship like hers and Luke, she would rather die than have this relationship, they didn’t understand it, they never could, they didn’t see what happened behind closed doors, they only saw what our managers wanted them to see
“How long have you been dating now?” Lydia asked, sitting up to look at her, Abby was amazed at how they had fallen for the fake relationship
“7 months” Abby said and faked a smile as they all ‘awed’, 7 months she has had to lie to her best friends, 7 months shes had to put her life on hold just for this new fame, her band mates loved the fame but Abby hated it but she couldn’t back out of it now because she had signed the contract
“Wow, Have you two had any fights?” April asked, this was a good question, Luke and Abby had never shouted at each other, they didn’t need to, it was written all over their faces at how much they hated it all, everytime Abby looked at Luke, all she saw was how much he hated her, that was a reason for the cuts on her wrist
“No, We’re just really happy together” Abby shrugged, she didn’t want to lie to them, she wished she could tell them the truth because that maybe might of stopped her from dragging the blade over her skin
