What if I wasn't exactly the person you thought I would be? What do you think I could actually be?
There's so many questions I want answers to...
I did something I instantly regret, I mean, I did SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many things I regret..
I'm sorry, it's just my daily anxiety :/
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seriously, my art sucks.
There's so many better artists than me, and I could name a lot of people who could draw trolls better than I can ever do..
A 5 year old can draw my art style! It's cartoon-ish! Sure, there's Dawnbuneary, but... she's good at drawing stuff her style.
I bring myself down for a reason, I just don't know what it is yet.
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I've been wishing to have fanficlover6666 's outstanding confidence,
_TMAG_ 's intelligence in writing AND math (which I am horrible at),
The creativity in drawing trolls from one of those famous artists (which you may know),
@nayancatlovestrolls's amazing ideas,
*sighs* and TrollsLover 's enthusiasm in things...
I mean, I wanna give up so bad, guys. I wanna give up in life and just live my life reading books and doing just that. Me, having no creativity, no intelligence, no happiness, no nothing. Just me and my books.
Psh, and I'm literally depressed on International Happiness day. (Which is today)
Sometimes I even wonder to myself if I'll even reach my goal and achieve it. Like, why was I even born in the first place? Was I supposed to be born? Who am I and what am I doing in this cruel world????!!!!
Sometimes, I stay up all night trying to make myself forget the unforgiving things in life. I regretted almost every mistake I ever did.
Every now and then, I felt my reality in social media has... been odd. I could tell that I wasn't as social as I used to be.
But in my actual life at school, I felt like I was actually getting attention (not that I needed, I was fine being quiet and alone) I started eating in tables with my friends and talking with them. I stayed in line with them and would crack a smile every joke they make.
My life is literally going upside down.
What if I wasn't born?
Yes, I'm bringing this question again, but I really wanna know what would happen.
The sun, moon and the earth would still be moving.
But what would happen to the people I met, and then never had met them in the first place?
What if I stayed in my home country and never downloaded Wattpad? I would have never met her, or any of you at all. I would probably be the normal me. The one who's usually happy, lazy, creative without a care and whatever sh*t I have ever done in my life.
Just imagining it now, I could imagine life would be without me in it.
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GOD, JUST ANSWER MY QUESTIONS!!!
Same goes to Lake, what if she never existed?
Heck, probably a different person would ship their OC with their favorite character in a movie.
Honestly, I think what I did was stupid... shipping Lake with ya know.
But if I thought that on my first day in Wattpad, Lake probably wouldn't exist either.
I mean, when I first started using her... it was a tragedy...
Talk with the few people I roleplayed firstly with Lake and you'll understand. One of them is, of course, TrollsLover and a few people who I barely talk to anymore...
